I wish I had wise words for your challenge of finding the right path and I don't. I do know that you are a wise person who has consistently made good decisions and will do that again in this situation. Your kids sound great, what a gift to be part of your family - always. Wishing you peace, grace and the ability to feel all the love that's coming your way.
It's film fest time and after reading your blog this morning before my films, this quote stuck from one of the films with me and I wanted to share with you. "Our mortality is both our shadow, and our shade." Blessings as you move forward in discerning what's next.
Michael and Jenny, On your discernment...maybe don't look for certainty, but enlightenment. Once you do decide, don't waste your good energy on wondering if you are right or wrong, St. Francis de Sales says ,:Use your energy to move forward on your what you have decided.. We too hold you close and thank you for your transparency. I love the way you mentioned how the kids showed love and affection today. (or was it yesterday?! SK2
M — I read this post while sitting in the rocking chair where I nursed Izzy 19 years ago. After reading what you wrote I started crying — just imagining you and your family going through another round of medical procedures with the additional uncertainty of doctors who don’t agree. I let myself just sit here, rocking, tears gently running down my chin. And then gradually something shifted. To my surprise, I noticed a tender smile start to ripple across my face. And the thought that gave rise to that change was this: it seems to me that you, Michael, are right now abiding in a field of great love. Who knows what the future may bring for you, or for any of us. But right now it appears that love is everywhere around, and within you. I am so grateful my mind and heart went there in the midst of the tears.
Thanks for the update, but darn it Michael, your situation should not be the grounds for a ping pong match between medical professionals. On the other hand, my grandma used to say, “if two people agree on everything, one is unnecessary.” So I hope that this debate results in valuable knowledge and creative unified approaches for finding the optimal path forward given your goals and objectives. Sending continued prayers and big hugs.