I heard about your accident. I also experienced heard Times in my lifetime.however, we can change such a negative thought could transform into positive results. Now you are having difficulty time for recovering. I introduce my case, andI hope my strong help to heel something in positive mind. When I was in childhood, I had lived in poor, I felt sometimes sad and to say why I was living in hard time.  My physical body was not healthy and rather weak in such difficult living times. However, I had had living in greater love which my mother gives me. Even we had not enough foods. She gave me all of funds shared to her kids. She did eat nothing sometimes. One day I realized about that and I asked my brother and sisters to share out food to my mother. So we tied stronger than before.