Journal entry by Marjorie Riddle-Hironimus —
Today marks day 31 of the Oxygen treatments. 9 more to go. I have not really spoken about what i am and have been going through. Not that it is bad or painful but because I have been feeling resentful of this experience. Some may think I have spent the past 6.5 weeks enjoying myself while i sat in a chamber watching movies. Personally not so much. People can say "with Covid not much has been happening' or "at least you get to relax and watch movies" Well, it's not fun when doing this is not by choice but due to necessity and it's 5 days a week for 8 weeks total
How do you explain to people that every day my stress level has been through the roof. That most times, that 2 hours I am unavailable, i get to my car and have multiple text messages I needed to respond to. That during Covid my business is essential so I need to be there not only to pay the growing medical bills but to support my employees as well. Most times I get out of the chamber and I am light headed and just feel off. Most times I just want to go home and be left alone. I have not wanted to talk or socialize. I just don't feel like me anymore. Now I was able to get my appointments early in the morning. So now, I get there at 6:30 just so i can get to work. I have noticed I am short with people for about 3 hours after my treatments. My side effects: I can't see well far away (my contacts are for distance) I can't drive at night (too many halo's), My ears pop throughout the day and I am IRRITABLE obviously. So this blog is full of complaints (something I really do try not to do) so I am sorry (not sorry, hahahaha) But on a positive note, for the first time the Dr. said she saw some improvement. Maybe by Christmas I can soak in a tub?
How do you explain to people that every day my stress level has been through the roof. That most times, that 2 hours I am unavailable, i get to my car and have multiple text messages I needed to respond to. That during Covid my business is essential so I need to be there not only to pay the growing medical bills but to support my employees as well. Most times I get out of the chamber and I am light headed and just feel off. Most times I just want to go home and be left alone. I have not wanted to talk or socialize. I just don't feel like me anymore. Now I was able to get my appointments early in the morning. So now, I get there at 6:30 just so i can get to work. I have noticed I am short with people for about 3 hours after my treatments. My side effects: I can't see well far away (my contacts are for distance) I can't drive at night (too many halo's), My ears pop throughout the day and I am IRRITABLE obviously. So this blog is full of complaints (something I really do try not to do) so I am sorry (not sorry, hahahaha) But on a positive note, for the first time the Dr. said she saw some improvement. Maybe by Christmas I can soak in a tub?
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