The details of my life before the big C are starting to fade.  I know I was a Flight Attendant.  I remember that I was very busy all the time.  I remember some specifics, but I don’t feel the emotional weight that always being on the go was like.  I just know that I loved being busy, and when I needed rest, I would lay in bed and fall asleep watching TV.  Now my routine is much more relaxed.  I can’t really do too much but watch TV and fall asleep.

If you don’t know what the big D is, I’m not going to tell you.  Its hard for me to discuss, but its a side-effect of the trial chemo I have been given.  It starts with stomach cramps and from then on I live in the bathroom.  Its been over a week since my last chemo treatment, and the big D still visits.  It’s my second least favorite side effect.  But, against ALL odds, I still have my hair!  Okay, that’s more than enough info for now.