Journal entry by treasa johns —
For my Beloved Sugar,
In true honesty I don't have the faintest clue what I am doing. But the truth is, it doesn't matter what I feel. Because this is not my story. It is Leah's. I am just someone who is lending her a hand in writing it. So my first draft, I feel should be just that. Acknowledging the fact that this is someone else we are talking about. Some one else's life. And as much as I can tell, or as vividly as I can express I couldn't possibly account exactly what she is feeling. Let's just say I will try my best to be as true to her as I am to anyone in this world. That should suffice. Right!!!
Also I would like to specify very clearly that this is in a way my gift to her. And if you ask for what, I could list various reasons, like for the unbelievable memories we have shared, or for the brain wracking advises she has given me or for being the most reliable confidant to me when i wanted her to be.
But summing all of this up and many other reason too, i would say this whole site is a gift to you most importantly for simply being.
Being who you are, and living it through the life that the world gave you
You are the brightest star in the night sky, you are the smoothest shell in the sand grains at the beach and you are the kindest person that I have had the good fortune to meet. And I couldn't thank you enough for being a part of my life and couldn't be grateful enough to allow me in being a part of yours.
All my other posts from here on, will be letters, letters to my dear sugar encapsulating everything i can think of, not considering which one will make for good memories or which one is presentable, just life and feelings pouring out in an uncontrollable gush.
So this is also a sort of warning. Beware, for the flood gates are opening and nothing is going to stop me from embarrassing you, or making you cry, turning you angry and more essentially making you happy.
Lovingly
Panther
In true honesty I don't have the faintest clue what I am doing. But the truth is, it doesn't matter what I feel. Because this is not my story. It is Leah's. I am just someone who is lending her a hand in writing it. So my first draft, I feel should be just that. Acknowledging the fact that this is someone else we are talking about. Some one else's life. And as much as I can tell, or as vividly as I can express I couldn't possibly account exactly what she is feeling. Let's just say I will try my best to be as true to her as I am to anyone in this world. That should suffice. Right!!!
Also I would like to specify very clearly that this is in a way my gift to her. And if you ask for what, I could list various reasons, like for the unbelievable memories we have shared, or for the brain wracking advises she has given me or for being the most reliable confidant to me when i wanted her to be.
But summing all of this up and many other reason too, i would say this whole site is a gift to you most importantly for simply being.
Being who you are, and living it through the life that the world gave you
You are the brightest star in the night sky, you are the smoothest shell in the sand grains at the beach and you are the kindest person that I have had the good fortune to meet. And I couldn't thank you enough for being a part of my life and couldn't be grateful enough to allow me in being a part of yours.
All my other posts from here on, will be letters, letters to my dear sugar encapsulating everything i can think of, not considering which one will make for good memories or which one is presentable, just life and feelings pouring out in an uncontrollable gush.
So this is also a sort of warning. Beware, for the flood gates are opening and nothing is going to stop me from embarrassing you, or making you cry, turning you angry and more essentially making you happy.
Lovingly
Panther
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