Pam Stevenson|Mar 19, 2021
Sooz, I am so glad you ghost wrote this piece. Rosie's journal entries have been such a part of this whole experience - and here she gets to experience her confusion and sadness and all the other things she could express she was/is feeling. It really kind of gives an additional and fuller bit of information and experience about what is going on in your life. I went into the hospital the day Larry died and was there for 2 weeks. I have been having a lot of difficulty dealing with all this stuff going on around me. Part of it is that it is just that time of year when I seem to be more sensitive to emotional/depressive stuff. And then there's the COVID and the fact that my brother is in Hospice care at home for advanced COPD and I am his designated (?) main caregiver. I can pretty well see him decline a bit each week and it's hard - as you well know. Keith still does a lot for himself, but it is getting harder and harder for him to do so. And then, the day after I entered the hospital, I got a call from the co-facilitator of my Covenant Circle (small group ministry) who told me that one of our members had died. I had not been able to go to the previous meeting and consequently did not know of his condition. He had been fighting cancer for 9 years; they changed his chemo med to another one and he was dead in 3 weeks. It seems that there is just no real way of knowing how things are going to go......I am still kind of struggling and wish that I could have stayed in the hospital another week, but life kept intervening. One smiley positive thing at the end here - my 45 year old Keri had a baby last month!!!!!! She is a sweet and precious little girl whose name is Della. She is out in Albuquerque, so who knows when I will ever get to meet her in person, but Keri has been good about sending pictures and our communication seems to be improving. I think of you so often and send love and prayers every day. And I love you very much. Pam