Journal entry by Kelly Roper —
First I want to thank you if you have taken the time to read this.
I am a 58 year old woman wanting to go back to college. I have 12 years of sobriety
and want to become a drug and alcohol counselor.
I have had 2 serious relationships in my life, both lasing 20 years, unfortunately both were
very abusive. I wish I understood what it is inside me that I ended up in bad relationships.
I am a very loving, kind person who tried everything to make things work.
More than anything, I wanted my family to be there for me during the difficult times and was
devastated when they weren't, far more hurt than a time when i had 2 black eyes.
I had always hoped after a situation like that had happened that he would say how sorry
he was, and that we'd get help, that he'd get help. But I was told if I wasnt so stupid, it wouldn't
have happened.
In my second relationship, it was so much more complicated, he was diabolical in how he
mentally knew what to say and how to hurt someone. when I met him he had his own contruction
company and was a hard worker. Within two years he had moved in, didn't work, and had
changed drastically. I had not had much experience with drugs or drug addicts.
Because of what I'd already been through in my first relationship, and obviously needed more
time to heal before getting into another one, I was not strong enough, hadnt healed. All the
things this guy knew and counted on.
I don't want to go on and on about how horrible the last 35 years have been.
I want a new life! One for me, where I can find some happiness in small things in life.
A job I enjoy and I'll figure out the rest as I go.
I am looking for a place to live, by myself, for low income rent, or for free, for a few years.
Till I have finished school, which should be less than 2 years. I'd work part time for some
cash flow. I don't care how small or big what the place looks like, as long as I am safe
and warm. It doesn't even have to be in my city or state.
If you have such a place for me or if you can contribute to helping me financially, I would
appreciate anything. Even prayers and supportive letters.
If you want to know more about me or hear more of my story, let me know.
Again if you have taken the time to read this, Thank you
If you view my photo, I am the blonde and this is my best friend.
I am a 58 year old woman wanting to go back to college. I have 12 years of sobriety
and want to become a drug and alcohol counselor.
I have had 2 serious relationships in my life, both lasing 20 years, unfortunately both were
very abusive. I wish I understood what it is inside me that I ended up in bad relationships.
I am a very loving, kind person who tried everything to make things work.
More than anything, I wanted my family to be there for me during the difficult times and was
devastated when they weren't, far more hurt than a time when i had 2 black eyes.
I had always hoped after a situation like that had happened that he would say how sorry
he was, and that we'd get help, that he'd get help. But I was told if I wasnt so stupid, it wouldn't
have happened.
In my second relationship, it was so much more complicated, he was diabolical in how he
mentally knew what to say and how to hurt someone. when I met him he had his own contruction
company and was a hard worker. Within two years he had moved in, didn't work, and had
changed drastically. I had not had much experience with drugs or drug addicts.
Because of what I'd already been through in my first relationship, and obviously needed more
time to heal before getting into another one, I was not strong enough, hadnt healed. All the
things this guy knew and counted on.
I don't want to go on and on about how horrible the last 35 years have been.
I want a new life! One for me, where I can find some happiness in small things in life.
A job I enjoy and I'll figure out the rest as I go.
I am looking for a place to live, by myself, for low income rent, or for free, for a few years.
Till I have finished school, which should be less than 2 years. I'd work part time for some
cash flow. I don't care how small or big what the place looks like, as long as I am safe
and warm. It doesn't even have to be in my city or state.
If you have such a place for me or if you can contribute to helping me financially, I would
appreciate anything. Even prayers and supportive letters.
If you want to know more about me or hear more of my story, let me know.
Again if you have taken the time to read this, Thank you
If you view my photo, I am the blonde and this is my best friend.
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