YAAY!! That’s right, I am writing from the comfort of my OWN BED!! It feels amazing and a bit overwhelming to be home! I was discharged from the hospital Monday afternoon. 

Devin came up and helped me pack up my things and so gracefully helped me to my dads vehicle — I mean we did wheelies all the way down to the lobby 🤨😳🤣 — goodness I love him but I coulda killed him, our typical relationship. The brother I’ve never had. 

Dad came and brought me home, after my insurance denied me once again, for swing bed. Ultimately the goal was to get me into a Hawarden a Hospital swing bed, so I could do more therapy there, but with insurance denying that, and seeing on paper that I was not sick enough, I was denied, and that was not an option. So dad came to get me And my social worker set up home health services, as well as therapy services in my home, this we felt was the best transition until we can figure out and get me a little more stronger.

One of my biggest fears after the stroke, was coming home and being a burden to my children. Some thing I have learned in the days of being here though, me being home has been better, even if I need their help, then me being away. The toll it took on The kids, while they might not always admit it, has been some thing else. I hate that for them. As a mom you always want what’s best for your children, you never want to be the reason why Your children are struggling. I’m super proud to be their mom, like so so proud of them.

moving forward, they are the reason why I know I will get better, like I told my therapist today there is no other choice. I also I’m so happy that even though we don’t have home health services in Hawarden, and I went with Sioux Center home health, I am still able to utilize Hawarden‘s physical therapy and occupational therapy and speech therapy. And like I told them, that made my day when my nurse gave me that option because I know they’re the best in the business. I know they will push me and I know that I will get stronger. I also know this is going to take time, and I also know that some of it might not all be regained. But I’m going to fight like hell, but your ass  I am.

We have been so blessed through this, with everybody offering anything and everything. We are so grateful. Also love the visitors, it makes my day!

next Monday I have a follow up appointment with Cindi, and my appointments with North Central heart, are being rescheduled, they are supposed to be calling me back tomorrow with what dates those will be. That will be for the femoral artery problem in my left leg. Other than that in July I will see the neurologist again, and have another EEG of my brain. It’s crazy, like I’ve said I’ve gone from taking almost 0 pills daily to taking quite a few pills day and night, thanks to my wonderful neighbor Neener (she is the best) For always checking up for me, and getting me my pill container. It has really helped me, as it’s hard for me to open the pill bottles specially with my left hand.

I am still having left-sided weakness, my left foot is numb, I can’t feel anything in my toes. My left hip to my knee has sharp pain, lots!! My smile is regaining its spark. I love that, my face is in as tingly. My headaches are still the same, I wish they would go away. I never had headaches before this, and so that is something new that I’ve been struggling with. It sucks. My left arm is coming along, it’s got good range of motion, but it is weak. Other than that the only other complaints I really happens the drooling, like my friend Amanda said today “well atleast you can laugh about it, If anybody was going to have this problem, it be you that could joke about it” — somedays there is just nothing else you can do ya know? 

God is good. God is God. And we are staying positive. Remember to thank God for the little things. I took fir granted so much before this happened.