It’s time to send one last Caring Bridge report. After nearly seven months I finally made a trip to Utah. On Wednesday, November 4th, I scattered John’s ashes on Powder Mountain. My friends Betsy and JD took me to the top of the last black run he made late in February as the cancer was taking control of his body. There wasn’t any snow today but he didn’t care. He was finally HOME!
Somehow I found my faltering voice to send him off with the following:
When I was 13 years old I was smitten by the boy that just the year before I had found to be a nuisance. It’s hard to believe that crush would gradually develop into a love that would span a lifetime together.
While recently rereading the love letters he wrote while we were still dating all those years ago, I continue to be amazed how many times he mentioned seeing the mountains for the first time and continued to express his awe and eagerness to share them with me.
And then he found skiing . . . . . .
Nothing else would ever compare. And now . . . .Where do I find the words to send the love of my life into the mountains he so dearly loved?
Over our 63 years together, we were able to fulfill so many of our dreams and wishes. Our life together was a true gift from God and I miss him terribly but I know this is where he wants to rest. God gave him 25 additional days to ski last winter and then decided he needed him. A huge piece of heart goes with him and I will never be the same.
Sweetheart, the mountains welcome your ashes and I know God smiles upon you. Here’s to deep powder and blue skis.
My path forward without my best friend and soul mate, isn’t a bit clear. Each month is a little different, and I'm slowly healing but I’m now aware the grief will probably never completely go away. I’m constantly reminded of the beautiful life we were given and treasure so many wonderful memories. Life is just very lonely without him.
Thank you again for all your support during John’s illness and the continuing phone calls, emails and texts. You can never know how much they mean to me. God Bless you all.