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It's been a month since Pops died. At times that month can feel like a year - or  an hour. I still feel disoriented, discombobulated and generally stunned. Folks are kind and loving and offer their support. I wish I knew what to tell them when they ask how I am doing and if there is anything they can do. Usually a shrug and a sigh and a half-hearted smile are all I can muster in response.

But there is one question that I can answer. Everyday I ask myself, "what would my dad do?".  Fortunately, I have a lifetime of data collected in the form of stories, memories and pictures to answer that question. Although his siblings did indeed call him "Saint John", my dad was far from perfect.  He was stubborn and could be obtuse when it came to really hearing views that conflicted with his own. He never let his kids or grandkids win at anything. He was a terrible tailgater in the left lane - or any lane, really.

So, my dad wasn't perfect. But he was a good man with a good heart who did good in this world.  And I will have lived a fortunate life if I can create half of the joy, love and goodness in the world that my dad has. And so I ask myself...

...what would my dad do?
1. Work hard. My dad worked hard - no matter the job. Whether leading his troop in Viet Nam, lawn care on a Saturday, managing logistics for the DOD or a family car trip, repairing/painting houses in underserved neighborhoods with his church community or creating a spreadsheet to equitably and precisely share costs between multiple families on vacation together.

2. Be reliable. Can your family and friends and neighbors count on you? Are you true to your word? You had better be.

3. Be present. Dad kept it pretty simple and clear.  Work hard and do your best (see #1 & #2 above). After that, don't waste your time worrying about X if there wasn't anything you could do about it. He wasn't intentionally Zen but he was very logical. (After all he was an engineer by training and a natural math nerd.)

4. Tell your people you love them. Dad wasn't a fan-fare kinda guy. Even with 55 years of marriage, there weren't elaborate love letters to my mom expressing his undying love for her - though he sent several dozens of letters from Japan and Viet Nam to my mom talking about the food and weather and what they would do when he returned to the States. Not romantic in topic or phrase but deeply loving in quantity and faithfulness of sending the letters. (Again, see #1, #2 & #3 above.) But dad frequently and easily told his people he loved them*.  It wasn't anything declared in any sort of special way - just a "Love you, Gal." "Love you, Bud." "Love you, Kid." (Kid was reserved especially for Mom.) And it was always accompanied with a hug a and kiss. And you knew he meant it.

[ *My sister tells a great story about our dad. He and our mom were tucking Amy into bed when she was about 3 years old. They said prayers and said goodnight. Our dad turned and headed for the door. Amy said, "I love you, Daddy." She says he stumbled out of the door like a deer in headlights. Could a dad say "I love you" to his kids? This kind of fathering had not been modeled for my dad. The very next night the scene was set just the same, Amy tucked in bed, prayers said, parents leaving the room and Amy says "I love you, Daddy." Dad hesitated for only a moment before he said in a somewhat awkward voice, "I love you, too, Amy." ] 

5. Keep learning. As was mentioned earlier, my dad was stubborn and nearly always sure he was right (annoyingly he frequently was right). But there were times when it was shown to him that there might indeed be a better way. (See the *Amy story * in #4 above.) Going through my Dad's paperwork and mail, I found a printed off article with bullet points and explanations how to recognize one's own white privilege and how to become an ally to people of color.

6. Enjoy life. Whenever possible - laugh. Dad loved laughing with his friends and families. He loved sharing group emails with jokes/cartoons. He had a well stocked library of "Dad Jokes" and would gladly share his favorites frequently. He was a smart ass who truly appreciated those with a quick wit and a salty tongue.  As I write this, I am picturing my dad laughing and smiling and the smile on my face is spontaneous and reassuring. 

So, to those who knew my dad, to those who love my dad, and especially to the 7 Grandkids of Grand B and Pop Pop, do yourself a favor. When in doubt, ask yourself, what would Pop Pop do? He wasn't perfect but he was pretty darn close. And he wouldn't steer you wrong. 

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  • patricia e. ortman : Beautiful, Jen, just beautiful. I'm so sorry for your loss. I was shocked to learn of your father's passing only minutes ago when your Mom sent an email to Ch/Art members. I didn't know him well, but he seemed very supportive of your Mom, for which I respected him greatly, and he was always very personable on the brief occasions we met. He always seemed to have a bit of a mischievous sparkle in his eyes so I suspected he was probably quite a funny fellow as well. I'm glad you all have such great memories of a very good Dad. We share the great privilege of having had one. So many are so lacking. Love to you and your whole family. I will be stopping by to see your Mom, socially distanced and masked, tho I am also now fully vaccinated so it will be a very safe visit, on the front porch. Virtual hugs. P.
  • Kay and Tom Huggard : Beautiful tribute, Jen. Thank you!!
  • Scott Cartland : Great tribute sister although I will choose to not wash my hair with just soap.
  • Stephanie Williams : Jen, so well said. Your father (my uncle) was a man of integrity, had a great sense of humor, decency, logic, and knew how to love. Besides our grandparents, John and your Mom demonstrated what love between two people is to me; being each other’s best friend, thoughtful, kind, sticking to promises, and having integrity. He was proud of his children, grandkids, and this country. I will miss him, the bits of historical wisdom, his infectious smile, the tailgating, and laughter. I have no doubt though that he is enjoying either a great game of golf, bbq at the grill or teaching someone how to, or enjoying a pontoon boat ride in a wonderful place in Heaven right now.
  • Chris Lindsley : Thanks Jen. Your dad was a special guy, and he was so much fun to be around. WWPPD indeed.
  • Joann Stevens : Beautiful tribute Jen. Thanks for sharing.
  • Larisa Viozzi : What a beautiful tribute Jen, it paints such a vivid picture I now feel I know him. And I see him in you, as I know you embody all of the above as well. Warm hugs...
  • Virginia Carson : So well written, Jen, and very true to the man I knew. The ones we love are never wholly gone, but it sure feels like that often. Keep writing, it helps
  • Roberta Martin : Beautiful capture of a life well lived and shared with those around him. He gave love and received love and the world is a better place because of it!
  • Michelle Weinstein : Beautifully spoken Jen. I will say having only met Pop for a moment, all his best attributes he surely passed on to you. How blessed you were to have such a loving & fun parent & role model in him. And how lucky all of us are that know you- that we get to see those attributes continue on in what makes you who you are. I heard once a saying that sticks with me during these times; “it’s impossible to forget someone who gave us so much to remember”. Seems certainly applicable to Pop... I love you & am so grateful to have you in my life & grateful for him to have given this world such an amazing woman for us to connect with. Xoxo Michelle
  • Lucy Kemper : Lovely tribute Jen. Thank you. Love, Aunt Lucy
  • Mary Sargent : Jen, have you see the interview Anderson Cooper did with Stephen Colbert? Hearing the loss stories of others can help. We all have stories about a loved one we have lost and how we walk on with that loss. Talking about someone we love never gets old. Here is the link https://youtu.be/YB46h1koicQ