It has been some time Jim. I found this location on an e-mail as I was going through my older e-mails. It was good to see your pictures of you and you with Rita. I know nobody will read this, so it is my therapy and a hope you get the message from my heart. You were dealt a shitty hand with the Cancer and I have a tough time being around death and dying, so my reaction is never good conversation. So, I envision you now, in my heaven, with Gary having a good beer or wine, seeing sites and doing stuff you love to do. Growing up with you as my older cousin, you and Joe had a perspective I was not raised with. I appreciate the different perspective with you both, may not have agreed with it all the time. You had grown into a good man from the kid I grew up with. I hardly saw you as you aged and did not know you well, as a man, but knew your potential from our childhood and growing up together. I love Rita, and know she feels deeply about your passing. I do not know how to support her or your sister in their time of loss. I can never come up with the correct words or actions to express my feeling for their loss, I believe you are in a better place than here with Cancer, it comes off pretty cold. I feel, uplifted knowing you are in a better spot. I do not believe they see things the same way and will get them angry or worse, disappointed in my perspective or word choices. I miss Mary, she helped me so much in my life. I do not know how to reconnect with her. Haha, I remember your love for Slolem skiing behind a boat or your wind surfing on Island Lake, areas of true joy in your life that I was able to witness. I hope your are with friends and family in heaven and able to capture those moments of true Joy again. God Bless and safe journey to you Jim, my cousin. Love Tom