Hello Laura ~ I've been thinking about you and Katherine and the coming season of year-anniversaries of 'last times' with Jeff. SO difficult. Springtime is when my mom became sick. She raised me as a single parent and we were very close. I moved in with her that spring and stayed with her through the end (which came three months later). The first year after I kept a journal (which sounds like you are already doing) and tried to write down what we were doing 'one year ago' each day. I printed off emails to paste in and added cards people sent and pictures, crossword puzzles we did together, etc. It wasn't easy, but it was good therapy. As the years have passed (this year 9) I look at the journal and it helps me remember details I long would have forgotten. The tender moments shared, the support from family and friends, even the days that were heart-breaking - I'm grateful to remember because we were together then. Your post above reminded me of the first entry in the journal which read 'oblivious... me one year ago' (3/18/2013). Anyway, for what it's worth, you and Katherine and Jeff are ever-present in my thoughts. I hope it's okay that I commented here since I'm a peripheral acquaintance at best. I know you have a strong support network of friends, but if there's ever a time when a less-well-known friend is needed, I hope that you will consider me ready and happy to help. 💜 Jen