Hi all-

Today is the fifth anniversary of Jay's death and I don't have anything profound to share.

 

I had a brief (figurative) heart attack today when it appeared Jay's Facebook profile was gone. While I don't spend much time on FB I found myself terrified and incredibly sad I'd lost his voice: all of his stories, funny comments, observations, parenting moments - everything he'd posted over the years. Thankfully, that didn't happen and I will use it as a reminder to take measures and ensure I have his stories for me and our boys.

 

A lot has changed in these past five years: we survived a pandemic, we've had numerous ups and downs, our "boys" have grown into men, and each of us has continued to grow and find our way.

 

Some things remain true even with all of these changes: 

"This day is so strange - simultaneously a “normal” day as well as marking another year without my/our person. For me it can feel very insular, and yet it also reminds me how far-reaching the sense of loss extends: to family, friends, coworkers, bandmates, etc.

It hurts and it’s hard, and we continue to find our way.

Sending love and support to all who love and miss him.

Dilek, Evren, and Eren"

 

He is still my person and each day is one day further away from him. I wish he was here -  I miss him even if I can't focus on it - and he still inspires me to try harder.

Sending love and support to all who love and miss him.

Dilek, Evren, and Eren

 

To honor Jay today we are making donations to: