Dear Shelley,
how I wish again to live near you, to come and hold you, and share with you. The passing time is beyond me, I don't understand, and I think I have given up to trying. It just is not the same anymore. The longing, the missing, the loving, the grieving can be so heavy at times, and so light at others. My mind is overwhelmed by it, so I let my heart do what it needs to do. Like you. Like too many of us. I think of you four so often, I send hugs and good thoughts and wish we were closer. Please light a tea light for Caleb from us, it will be our sign of remembering him - he is not forgotten.
We're approaching the fifth time without her, it is unimaginable. And still it is.
Thank you for sharing, the song's lyrics made me cry, so true.
With love, we will be thinking of you over the holidays.
Stefanie with Lovis in my heart
Sheila Jones "Always Sammy's Grammie"|Dec 18, 2014
Understand. 💔 You are so right, They will never be the same, however I do have Hope that in the future you find joy again, possibility with future grandchildren 💚. Wishing you the best holidays as possible with "hope" that Caleb will send you a loving sign. 💚
I love you, Shelley. And I while my heart breaks for you, I will remember with you. I look forward to remembering him--and his generosity of spirit--with you this year. In Christmases past, I remember that time I planned a surprise visit, and you called me at the airport to tell me that you 'caught' Caleb privately talking to me on an unconnected phone wishing for me to come to spend Christmas with him. I remember waking up in the bunk above him as he wriggled around bursting with Christmas morning excitement. I remember how patient he and Avery were (with me) when we baked gingerbread man--that none of us would eat--until we got it right. I remember Caleb and Avery loving to get their hearts racing with anticipation--"Santa is coming!!"--on Christmas Eve and on July afternoons. I remember the huge paper snowman the three of us made that year when it didn't snow. I remember the expression on your face--to unwrap an everlasting gift of pure joy--as he lit up like a Christmas tree when you hugged him. Whether he is 2 or 22, all of you (you, Calvin, Caleb and Avery) will always be Christmas to me. I love all of you with my whole heart.
I am so glad to hear your thoughts - it reminds all of us how precious life is and how those lost are never forgotten, especially around holidays. Days are never the same without them. We can only push forward because there is no choice but to do that. You are in my thoughts. We never met but I followed Caleb's story for so long and had always hoped you would post again.
I'm continuing to remember Caleb, and holding you and your family in my prayers. There is such a huge focus on family and being together for the holidays...and so many specific memories that come to mind...it's understandable why the holidays seem a little more difficult. It's not that you miss him any less on any other day, but the lack of his presence is just so pronounced on these big days. I'm glad you are all finding your way through and doing things that honor Caleb and bring Avery joy...you are an incredible family and I know Caleb is always carried in your heart. Sending my love to you all. Remembering.... Merry Christmas wishes to you all ♥
how I wish again to live near you, to come and hold you, and share with you. The passing time is beyond me, I don't understand, and I think I have given up to trying. It just is not the same anymore. The longing, the missing, the loving, the grieving can be so heavy at times, and so light at others. My mind is overwhelmed by it, so I let my heart do what it needs to do. Like you. Like too many of us. I think of you four so often, I send hugs and good thoughts and wish we were closer. Please light a tea light for Caleb from us, it will be our sign of remembering him - he is not forgotten.
We're approaching the fifth time without her, it is unimaginable. And still it is.
Thank you for sharing, the song's lyrics made me cry, so true.
With love, we will be thinking of you over the holidays.
Stefanie with Lovis in my heart