Yesterday was Chemo 4 and felt pretty good most of the day. Started getting tired late last night. Woke up @ 6 am to take my meds and didn't wake up again until 5pm. Ate a little dinner, took a shower and going to lay back down. No one even understands what I'm going through. Only my two boys, both parents, Mike who I'm forbidden to see and would be the one to research the Hell out of my disease, Sondra a good friend who I hadn't seen for several years until recently, my dad's 3 daughters who have went above and beyond giving me advice and support and my cousin Patty also an outcast of my dysfunctional family are the only ones I've discussed my condition making it extremely difficult. Today would have been my 36th year anniversary which along with everything else has been weighing heavy on me. I'm certain things would be different if only he were still around but enough of that. Have a great evening and a wonderful day tomorrow.