Little old me here😊 . Just had my blood drawn and platelets are at 59 so I am about to start round 11! I’ve had many emotions lately. Birthdays and holidays seem to spark the welling of tears. Although fun, I get an abrupt sensation to cry. Maybe because I see more beauty? Maybe because I fear that this beauty will disappear for me soon? 

 

Even with the fear, I’ve seen the beauty. I’ve been saying yes to things that are hard. Raft floats down the Brandywine, really hot pool days, swimming with my kids, morning walks with friends, late nights with friends. Beautiful, life giving events and people- hard because my neuropathy in my feet has increased, and the heat wears me down right quickly... both which tear my optimism down abruptly. I will continue to say yes and fight the negativity and the pain. I will strive to smile and put a big fat mental bow on all of God's gifts! 

 

Medically, my platelets are good enough today to get round 11! It’s hard to believe that I’m near the end of this first phase already. I am still planning on getting scanned at the end of the month and I’ve already scheduled an appointment soon after with a Penn Pancreatic Oncologist and a Jefferson surgeon. It’s helpful to have some sort of plan on what’s next. 

 

My kids have been busy and enjoying a simple old school summer. Steve, my family, and my community have been incredibly helpful and supportive. The sun is out and I feel amazing one week out of every two, so my heart is full. I continue to feel the love from you all!!!! You’re warriors. I know you think of me often and pray for me even more. I appreciate it more than you know.

Love, Erin