Journal entry by Ed and Amy Mathis —
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We want to invite you to share with us on our journey that began on October 1, 2019. That day my wife, Amy, had suffered a seizure while at our home. My daughter, who is usually not at our house during this time, was there. Maddison our 20-year-old daughter said that she heard a loud noise that sounded like someone jumped on the floor. She shared that she came into our kitchen to see if she could discover what the sound was. When Maddison came into our kitchen, she saw her mother on the floor having convulsions. She said at that time she immediately rolled Amy, her mother, on to her side, and protected her from hurting herself. Maddison reported that she did not know what was happening to her mother, but stated that it was the most painful thing she ever has experienced. To watch the mother that has always been independent and strong, suddenly helplessly convulsing due to a seizure. When Amy ceased from convulsing, Maddison helped her up and attempting to understand what was going on with her mother. She tried talking to her, however, Amy was not able to respond to Maddison's questions. Amy was up and active, which is the only posture my wife is ever in but was obviously unaware of what had taken place just moments before. Maddison called the ambulance and they arrived within minutes.
I, Ed, had been informed, by my secretary, that my daughter had called and told her that my wife had experienced some sort of seizure. I immediately left the office and started my journey home. As I was driving home, my thoughts were racing, trying to figure out what could have happened. I was thinking that, possibly, Maddison had overreacted and just thought her mother had a seizure. Why would Amy have a seizure? Amy has never had a seizure. Surely, Maddison was wrong. I attempted to call my wife but was unable to contact her. As I became more nervous my foot on the gas pedal responded by pressing down harder. When I arrived at my house, I saw, what no one wants to see. There were an ambulance and fire truck parked in front of my house. My thoughts had moved away from surely a mistake was made, to please God, let this be something small. I was surrendering over to the thought that, my wife had not eaten today and was probably dehydrated or her glucose was off. Yes, I am sure that is what it was. Man, I am really going to let her have it, for not eating or drinking anything today. A part of me was excited to see her so that I could give her a hard time. I then walked into my house and was greeted by a paramedic. He informed that Amy was in the ambulance being examined due to having a seizure. I then confidently walked to the ambulance as I was thinking, boy this is going to be funny, she is going to be so embarrassed, I get to tease her about this for a long time. However, when I opened the ambulance door and walked in, as I looked at her face, my heart sunk. There was my wife, with a golf ball size lump under her eye, and a look of confusion and fear. I that moment this stopped being funny.
Arrived at the hospital and Amy begin to become aware of what happened and why she was in the ER. In the ER room, we experienced the usual 20 questions, while Amy was being poked and proded. The question that of the moment was on everyone's mind. What happened? Why did Amy have a seizure? To help answer that quesiton the ER physician ordered a CT scan, to which Amy protested due to the possibility of discovering an unfavorable report. I assured my wife, that this is standard procedure and she has nothing to worry about. I was told somewhere in my past, either from reading or conversation that 20% of what we fear happens. I mean that leaves 80% in our favor. When I said "Amy its nothing, just dehydration or your electrolytes". They will probably give you fluids and a lecture about drinking more water.
The results came back and as I was walking back into Amy's ER room, nobody had to tell me that it was unexpected news, I heard my wife from down the hall. They had found a tumor on her left side frontal lobe and an MRI will tell us more. Needless to say, we were shocked, devastated and dazed. How could this happen? If I would have had the strength to argue, and plead with God, I would have, instead, I was stunned, numb and deflated. I have never felt energy and optimism hemorrhage out of me with the force I felt on October 1, 2019. I thought about an uncertain future, my three children, how should we tell them? What should we tell them? This was something I have never even imagined for my family. Amy and I just celebrated 25 years of marriage in May and for all those years nothing even close to this has occurred.
Our family was naturally devastated. Thinking about it now, I am not sure why. The reason for this comment is due to what we have, as a family, walked through. Two years ago, we lost our cousin Danny, known to the family as little Danny, named after my mother in laws brother "big Danny" Several months after that little Danny's little brother nearly lost his life to an intestinal complication that has left him with unique challenges. A few months after that my mother unexpectedly passed away at the age of 68 years old. Just two months ago, my mother in laws other brother, Stuart and his wife Melinda Nelson, lost their son, Justin, due to a head-on collision, while on his way from Texas to visit them. He left behind three children and a wife. He was only 42 years old and a close dear member of our family. The thing about this family, the one I married into, is their closeness to one another. When they say when you marry a person, you marry their family. I am glad that it the case. This family carries and shares more love than I have ever known. As a counselor, a Pastor and personally i have experienced some pretty toxic family dynamics. I have seen the destruction of many broken families. Families that could care less where and what their members were doing, or experiencing. I have seent the residual effects and scars that can leave on a person, creating deep emotional issues. However, this is not a family like that. This is a loving, caring and nurturing family, that have sacrificed and spent their time giving and loving others. So, I struggle, I am struggling with the terms HOW? WHY? ANGER! That my wife, who is a product of that family would ever be diagnosed with a nasty, vulgar and obscene finding like a brain tumor.
We are reeling and staggering right now. However, we are standing together, as we have always done in times of crisis. Amy and I, with the family, are deeply offended that this landed on our life but could not imagine going through this with any other family. I could not imagine going through this without the support and strength this family gives. This family is a family of faith, a faith that has been tested and strained. A faith that has been gripped by tired hurting hearts, but remains gripped. Our faith is our strength Our God is still God, Our God is faithful, Our God is bigger than any diagnoses the enemy can throw at us. We are still standing.
Today we are waiting to hear from the Dr, as to when we are scheduled for the operation that will remove the tumor. We are asking that you join us through prayer and faith, that our trip to KU medical will be wasted time. That the Dr and specialist will be confounded as to where this alleged tumor is at. That this tumor will have vanished and hurled back to the pit of hell from where it came from. We want all who read this to speak the word over this situation. Pray to the father Psalms 107:20 He sent his word and healed them. Them; Amy Mathis and family, Them Baughman family; Them; Nelson family. Please pray their names in place of them... I will continue to post updates for those who are praying with us. God bless and God is good " Taste and see that the Lord is GOOD; blessed is theone who takes refuge in him.... Psalms 34:8
We want to invite you to share with us on our journey that began on October 1, 2019. That day my wife, Amy, had suffered a seizure while at our home. My daughter, who is usually not at our house during this time, was there. Maddison our 20-year-old daughter said that she heard a loud noise that sounded like someone jumped on the floor. She shared that she came into our kitchen to see if she could discover what the sound was. When Maddison came into our kitchen, she saw her mother on the floor having convulsions. She said at that time she immediately rolled Amy, her mother, on to her side, and protected her from hurting herself. Maddison reported that she did not know what was happening to her mother, but stated that it was the most painful thing she ever has experienced. To watch the mother that has always been independent and strong, suddenly helplessly convulsing due to a seizure. When Amy ceased from convulsing, Maddison helped her up and attempting to understand what was going on with her mother. She tried talking to her, however, Amy was not able to respond to Maddison's questions. Amy was up and active, which is the only posture my wife is ever in but was obviously unaware of what had taken place just moments before. Maddison called the ambulance and they arrived within minutes.
I, Ed, had been informed, by my secretary, that my daughter had called and told her that my wife had experienced some sort of seizure. I immediately left the office and started my journey home. As I was driving home, my thoughts were racing, trying to figure out what could have happened. I was thinking that, possibly, Maddison had overreacted and just thought her mother had a seizure. Why would Amy have a seizure? Amy has never had a seizure. Surely, Maddison was wrong. I attempted to call my wife but was unable to contact her. As I became more nervous my foot on the gas pedal responded by pressing down harder. When I arrived at my house, I saw, what no one wants to see. There were an ambulance and fire truck parked in front of my house. My thoughts had moved away from surely a mistake was made, to please God, let this be something small. I was surrendering over to the thought that, my wife had not eaten today and was probably dehydrated or her glucose was off. Yes, I am sure that is what it was. Man, I am really going to let her have it, for not eating or drinking anything today. A part of me was excited to see her so that I could give her a hard time. I then walked into my house and was greeted by a paramedic. He informed that Amy was in the ambulance being examined due to having a seizure. I then confidently walked to the ambulance as I was thinking, boy this is going to be funny, she is going to be so embarrassed, I get to tease her about this for a long time. However, when I opened the ambulance door and walked in, as I looked at her face, my heart sunk. There was my wife, with a golf ball size lump under her eye, and a look of confusion and fear. I that moment this stopped being funny.
Arrived at the hospital and Amy begin to become aware of what happened and why she was in the ER. In the ER room, we experienced the usual 20 questions, while Amy was being poked and proded. The question that of the moment was on everyone's mind. What happened? Why did Amy have a seizure? To help answer that quesiton the ER physician ordered a CT scan, to which Amy protested due to the possibility of discovering an unfavorable report. I assured my wife, that this is standard procedure and she has nothing to worry about. I was told somewhere in my past, either from reading or conversation that 20% of what we fear happens. I mean that leaves 80% in our favor. When I said "Amy its nothing, just dehydration or your electrolytes". They will probably give you fluids and a lecture about drinking more water.
The results came back and as I was walking back into Amy's ER room, nobody had to tell me that it was unexpected news, I heard my wife from down the hall. They had found a tumor on her left side frontal lobe and an MRI will tell us more. Needless to say, we were shocked, devastated and dazed. How could this happen? If I would have had the strength to argue, and plead with God, I would have, instead, I was stunned, numb and deflated. I have never felt energy and optimism hemorrhage out of me with the force I felt on October 1, 2019. I thought about an uncertain future, my three children, how should we tell them? What should we tell them? This was something I have never even imagined for my family. Amy and I just celebrated 25 years of marriage in May and for all those years nothing even close to this has occurred.
Our family was naturally devastated. Thinking about it now, I am not sure why. The reason for this comment is due to what we have, as a family, walked through. Two years ago, we lost our cousin Danny, known to the family as little Danny, named after my mother in laws brother "big Danny" Several months after that little Danny's little brother nearly lost his life to an intestinal complication that has left him with unique challenges. A few months after that my mother unexpectedly passed away at the age of 68 years old. Just two months ago, my mother in laws other brother, Stuart and his wife Melinda Nelson, lost their son, Justin, due to a head-on collision, while on his way from Texas to visit them. He left behind three children and a wife. He was only 42 years old and a close dear member of our family. The thing about this family, the one I married into, is their closeness to one another. When they say when you marry a person, you marry their family. I am glad that it the case. This family carries and shares more love than I have ever known. As a counselor, a Pastor and personally i have experienced some pretty toxic family dynamics. I have seen the destruction of many broken families. Families that could care less where and what their members were doing, or experiencing. I have seent the residual effects and scars that can leave on a person, creating deep emotional issues. However, this is not a family like that. This is a loving, caring and nurturing family, that have sacrificed and spent their time giving and loving others. So, I struggle, I am struggling with the terms HOW? WHY? ANGER! That my wife, who is a product of that family would ever be diagnosed with a nasty, vulgar and obscene finding like a brain tumor.
We are reeling and staggering right now. However, we are standing together, as we have always done in times of crisis. Amy and I, with the family, are deeply offended that this landed on our life but could not imagine going through this with any other family. I could not imagine going through this without the support and strength this family gives. This family is a family of faith, a faith that has been tested and strained. A faith that has been gripped by tired hurting hearts, but remains gripped. Our faith is our strength Our God is still God, Our God is faithful, Our God is bigger than any diagnoses the enemy can throw at us. We are still standing.
Today we are waiting to hear from the Dr, as to when we are scheduled for the operation that will remove the tumor. We are asking that you join us through prayer and faith, that our trip to KU medical will be wasted time. That the Dr and specialist will be confounded as to where this alleged tumor is at. That this tumor will have vanished and hurled back to the pit of hell from where it came from. We want all who read this to speak the word over this situation. Pray to the father Psalms 107:20 He sent his word and healed them. Them; Amy Mathis and family, Them Baughman family; Them; Nelson family. Please pray their names in place of them... I will continue to post updates for those who are praying with us. God bless and God is good " Taste and see that the Lord is GOOD; blessed is theone who takes refuge in him.... Psalms 34:8
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