Yesterday was a roller coaster. We met at 2 with the surgical team  to discuss the options. The patch they put over the ulcer has opened up and he is leaking infection. We have 2 options, do surgery or bring dad home and let him be around all of us one last time . Either option is scary because it means either saying goodbye now or surgery and worrying about the complications of that . We keep asking dad what he wants and he’s unsure . I know he’s a fighter but I also know he’s tired . We are letting him gauge what direction he wants to go .  I know that we all want him to stay but I also know we can’t be selfish . He would stay just to keep us from pain , he would suffer so that we didn’t have to . Keep my dad in your prayers.