Over the past month I have been praying and asking for signs to help guide us in the direction we should be going. A friend of mine has reached out to Adam and I with interest in being a gestational carrier for us, I have gained more knowledge on the entire process, and have gotten to talk to others that have gone through this process. I would say that all those things are very exciting and Gods way of telling us to continue on. Adam and I both are prepared and realize that this entire journey isn’t going to be easy and were going to have ups and downs but getting some good news and positive signs is refreshing. We are still in the very beginning stages of everything but each step we’re taking is bringing us closer to being parents again to a precious little one and bringing Landry one step closer to becoming a big sister. Just typing that last sentence gets me excited. Being Landry’s mom this past year and a half has been so rewarding. I love being a mom and watching her grow up. I still look back on the days in the hospital and question why things went the way they did and why couldn’t everything go smoothly. I don’t know if we will ever know all the answers to the questions of why but I pray that we will continue to learn from this journey and that God will continue to show us some answers to those questions. Our next fertility appointment is scheduled for the beginning of October. That meeting will consist on use signing consents and starting the journey to making embryos. I have tons of mixed emotions about making embryos… nervous, excited, scared, stressed, hopeful, and happy. I’m nervous for the unknown. Will we be able to retrieve eggs, will those eggs and Adams sperm make healthy embryos, and just the unknown.  I’m excited to start the process and excited that we are given this option. I’m scared to get bad news, or again just the unknown. I stressed about the entire process and the financial part of it. Will we be able to afford it, how much is it all going to costs, what fees are going to pop up that we arn’t aware of now, what if it takes use a few cycles of medication to get embryos. I am hopeful and happy that I am alive to even experience the joys of being a parent and that this is an option for us. Continued prayers and support are needed. Please continue to follow our journey and donate if you can. Every little bit helps, no matter if its monetary or a sweet message/ advise, or prayers. We are grateful for it all!