Debby, I love to read your journal and it always, always, always builds my faith. I know exactly what you mean when you talk about the dreams you had for your life...as I sometimes think that every dream I've ever had has been ripped away from me and my life is defined by loss. But I also am rich in love. My adult children and grandchildren and even great grandchildren love me so much! It's amazing since we do not live in the same state but God has given this to all of us. I just got a letter from a great grandson yesterday that was addressed to "The Best Grandma." I was thrilled. He's never written me before. Since I was only 17 when my firstborn came into the world, I have been privileged to have many grandchildren and great grandchildren pretty early. I have a 30 year old grandson! Crazy!I have been doing a lot of thinking during this quarantine and I have been realizing even more how fast life goes by and how it's "like a vapor." God has called us to be worthy of this suffering and he does work all things for our good. Prayers for you and yours always, Debby. Much love from me. Linda