Thanks, Debby, for expressing and recording the jumble of your intricate thoughts and concerns. Through your words we can better understand what you're experiencing and trying to process....the concern for knowing what's going on, the intrusion and yet seemingly ever present pain, the grappling with wanting to trust God in and through the symptoms, the longing to be with your kids to comfort and care, the uncertainty of what lies ahead while trying to be obedient to Matt. 6:34...and before, on and on.
I will tag your name in one of my Facebook timeline postings.... It is super valuable.... referencing God wanting to do us good. The accusation of our enemy to Adam and Eve is a tack he still uses today....wanting to accuse God of withholding good from us, of throwing doubt on the character and motivation of God. Maybe even Satan uses projection - casting on God Satan's own motivation of pressuring us to do evil, to respond selfishly, not wanting the ultimate good of others? Hmm. That's a new to me thought!
When someone is doing something troubling, so often my only key to understanding (or at least the primary key) is what I MYSELF would be thinking or feeling if I were doing that particular thing in words or actions. You've perhaps heard the illustration: When we point a finger at others we have three fingers pointing back at ourselves. It's kind of a practical illustration of "Judge not that you be not judged."
We with whom you communicate surely do not understand the WHY of what you're going through. We LONG to have you relieved of the pain, uncertainty, turmoil. So we can understand the importance of deep submission to God's plan and design for you...yet agree that we cannot fully figure Him out! (Grateful that "He is God and we are not.") I think of Job....ouch! "Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him."
When you pour out your heart, it surely gives us a deeper look to your inner self. Thanks. We're glad if it brings some measure of clarity and relief to you TO pour out your thoughts through this avenue of expression. May God use YOUR communications to imprint you and your kids and the plethora of your needs on OUR minds so we lift you to our Father. You NEED people to hold up your arms just like Aaron and Hur did for Moses. Our arms can get REALLY heavy and fatigued as we lift them over a period of time.
I think of the words of the father of the son who was having seizures and experiencing self harm, when the father answered Jesus I think Jesus was forthrightly challenging this father's heart and expectations, when the man asked Jesus "if you can heal..." Mark 9 has the full account - as Jesus came down from the Mount of Transfiguration. The father's verbal response has so often been MY heartfelt response to God and the directions of Scripture, "Lord, I believe. Help my unbelief."
Well, by now maybe you think I'm trying to get even with you - writing a LONG dissertation!! :) No, it's been a while since I've written. I'd encourage you to again and again return to the truths of God...He MUST be faithful to Who He is...even at the times when He is not acting and moving and resolving what our needs are, as far as we can know and tell. He IS the Great I AM - the ever present Help in trouble.
I will tag your name in one of my Facebook timeline postings.... It is super valuable.... referencing God wanting to do us good. The accusation of our enemy to Adam and Eve is a tack he still uses today....wanting to accuse God of withholding good from us, of throwing doubt on the character and motivation of God. Maybe even Satan uses projection - casting on God Satan's own motivation of pressuring us to do evil, to respond selfishly, not wanting the ultimate good of others? Hmm. That's a new to me thought!
When someone is doing something troubling, so often my only key to understanding (or at least the primary key) is what I MYSELF would be thinking or feeling if I were doing that particular thing in words or actions. You've perhaps heard the illustration: When we point a finger at others we have three fingers pointing back at ourselves. It's kind of a practical illustration of "Judge not that you be not judged."
We with whom you communicate surely do not understand the WHY of what you're going through. We LONG to have you relieved of the pain, uncertainty, turmoil. So we can understand the importance of deep submission to God's plan and design for you...yet agree that we cannot fully figure Him out! (Grateful that "He is God and we are not.") I think of Job....ouch! "Though He slay me, yet will I trust Him."
When you pour out your heart, it surely gives us a deeper look to your inner self. Thanks. We're glad if it brings some measure of clarity and relief to you TO pour out your thoughts through this avenue of expression. May God use YOUR communications to imprint you and your kids and the plethora of your needs on OUR minds so we lift you to our Father. You NEED people to hold up your arms just like Aaron and Hur did for Moses. Our arms can get REALLY heavy and fatigued as we lift them over a period of time.
I think of the words of the father of the son who was having seizures and experiencing self harm, when the father answered Jesus I think Jesus was forthrightly challenging this father's heart and expectations, when the man asked Jesus "if you can heal..." Mark 9 has the full account - as Jesus came down from the Mount of Transfiguration. The father's verbal response has so often been MY heartfelt response to God and the directions of Scripture, "Lord, I believe. Help my unbelief."
Well, by now maybe you think I'm trying to get even with you - writing a LONG dissertation!! :) No, it's been a while since I've written. I'd encourage you to again and again return to the truths of God...He MUST be faithful to Who He is...even at the times when He is not acting and moving and resolving what our needs are, as far as we can know and tell. He IS the Great I AM - the ever present Help in trouble.
Love, Nell