It has been just over 5 weeks since we said goodbye to Craig.  It has been a whirlwind of emotions and activity.  The outpouring of love and support was beyond anything our family could have imagined. 

I realize now how much writing and sharing with you has meant to me over the past 4 ½ years.   It was my therapy, my diary, my place to find support, and my way to share what I needed to express.  Since Craig died, I have found it difficult to put into words what the loss, grief, and sadness feels like. 

Craig is not suffering any more.  There are no more tests, surgeries, hospital stays, treatments, doctors etc. etc. etc.  I do still find myself waiting for him to walk into the room or holler from the bedroom.  For those of you that have experienced the loss of a spouse or close family member, I imagine you know what that is like.

This past weekend we celebrated the beautiful wedding of our daughter Kate.   It was a small, intimate family wedding.  The tears of joy and sadness came over all of us.  It was a reminder how precious each day is and how quickly life moves on.  We know that Craig was watching over us as the day was absolutely perfect.

I do not know what navigating this new normal will be like for us, but please pray for me and our family.  We have a huge void in our world.  I am not sure you will hear from me again on this platform, but I pray that sharing our journey has given you inspiration to fight, research, pray and trust God’s plan for your life.

God bless you and thank you.

Becky