Journal entry by PAM ZAUGG

Radiologist just called and the pictures taken today showed no increase in tumor size 🙂 in last month. 😀. Chuck has not had any chemo since June 12th. Dr plans to radiate Chucks femur and pelvis to prevent breakage for the tumor is on a weight bearing bone.   Please continue to pray for energy and continued recovery as we wait on Gods healing!  We are thankful for family visits and support in so many ways, and pray this last radiation will not add to more side affects. 

Journal entry by PAM ZAUGG

Thank you for sticking with us as a family uniting in God's Word asking Him for healing and encouragement.  Monday Chuck has an appointment with our radiologist to have another scan that will determine where the tumors are after these last two weeks of no treatment.  Jeff & girls leave today and Family come for a quick visit from Rockford.  The resort is busy & God continues to work here!

Day 10: In Isaiah 36-39 we see the story of Hezekiah.  Please go with me to chapter 40 today as we end this 10 day devotional. God does not leave us to dwell on Hezekiah’s ups and downs but want us to focus on the comfort He gives!  

  Isaiah 40 says “Comfort, comfort My people and speak tenderly…Listen!..  Straighten the curves, and smooth out the rough places. Then the glory of the Lord will be revealed and all people will see it together!…The grass withers and the flowers fade but the Word of our God stands forever..

Shout!  Tell all that your God is coming!  The Sovereign Lord is coming in power,  He will rule with a powerful Arm and He brings His reward with Him as He comes!  He feeds His flock like a shepherd and carries His lambs in His arms holding them close to His Heart.  He will gently lead the mother sheep with their young.(We watch our kids with our grandchildren leading and holding and see how our God is taking care of every detail in our lives!)

To whom can you compare God? Isaiah goes on to share God's creation and the amazing details that we see as we look around us..“To Whom is My equal?” Asks the Holy One… Have you not heard? Have you not understood?

   The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of all the earth. He never grows tired or weary.  No one can measure the depths of His understanding,  He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless.  Even youths will become weak and tired and young men will fall in exhaustion.  But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.  They will soar high on wings of eagles.  They will run and not grow weary.  They will walk and not faint.”

As we watch the eagles soar over Anvil Lake we are reminded of God’s faithfulness and His Presence fills us with a power that comes from His Peace!


Journal entry by PAM ZAUGG

Day 9: The end of Hezekiah’s story includes a bad choice, pride, and then a good choice, humility and repentance.  However after having success in all he did, he went back to being prideful showing folks from Babylon all his wealth. Chuck has always sought to be “humble and kind” as the Tim McGraw song says! These days he has been really tired but his throat better..  thanks for all the prayers!  Jeff and his older girls, Kiva and Ruthie, are here to love on Papa for a couple days!  

2 Chronicles 32:24-33. “He prayed to the Lord, Who healed him and gave him a miraculous sign.  But Hezekiah did not respond appropriately to the kindness shown him, and he became proud.  So the Lord’s anger came against him and against Judah and Jerusalem.  Then Hezekiah humbled himself and repented of his pride, as did the people of Jerusalem.  So the Lord’s anger did not fall on them during Hezekiah’s lifetime…. Hezekiah was very wealthy and highly honored… He succeeded in everything he did,  However when ambassadors arrived from Babylon to ask about the remarkable events that had taken place in the land, God withdrew from Hezekiah in order to test him and to see what was really in his heart….”

God knows our hearts and we need to continue to pray for hearts to trust He is in control.  Surrender has been a tough word for me, but as I give God my heart He shows me how much He loves us both, and as we worship Him He takes away our fears. />


Journal entry by PAM ZAUGG

Chuck believes God has his life in His hands and prays for wisdom and strength to live for Him!  We come to a place in Hezekiah's life where he is healed and given a sign.  God actually moved the sun!  Our God is bigger and greater than we can imagine for He created our world!  Imagine what the astronomers observed that day!?  God uses nature in crazy ways to show Himself!  

Chuck has always, ever since we moved to Eagle River, said, "It is just another day in paradise!"  How we love the creation God has for us here!  Yesterday we were able to take a short walk and sit on our deck enjoying the lake, the birds, the ducks, the sunshine and our home here.  God shows us signs of His greatness each day and we need to take time to see them! 

2 Kings 20:7-11. What sign will the Lord give to prove that He will heal me and that I will go to the Temple of the Lord three days from now?… Isaiah asked the Lord to cause the shadow to move ten steps backward on the sundial …. 

Peace is a gift that comes when we trust God completely and know He is in control of our lives.  We are in a place of resting and waiting as we pray for Chuck's body to build back from the medicines and radiation it has been subjected to.  The cancer seems to be filling Chucks body, from what the doctors say, and yet we know our God is bigger and greater than we can imagine and He has a plan for our lives.  We would love to have a sign that shows us next steps and pray for direction, but for now we rest and wait trusting His plan!  

Journal entry by PAM ZAUGG

Day 7: Chuck asks for help from the Lord & He has helped him! 

 In this battle against cancer Chuck has seen the goodness of our Lord and His presence when we cry out for help.  These last few weeks have been rough, but we believe He has allowed Chuck these last 19 months to tell of His faithfulness. We walk humbly day to day and thank God for forgiveness of sins!  We ask God for the miracle of complete healing, and thank Him for the days He has allowed us and sing His praises as we see signs of Him all around us. Chuck wants his grandchildren to hear of God's faithfulness and to know where to go for help in life.  Isaiah 38: “…I am in trouble, Lord, Help me!  But what could I say? ... Now I will walk humbly throughout my years because of the anguish I have felt.  Lord, Your discipline is good, for it leads to life and health.  You restore my health and allow me to live! Yes, this anguish was good for me, for You have rescued me from death and forgiven all my sins… Only the living can praise You as I do today.  Each generation tells of Your faithfulness to the next…” 

God understands us and we believe, but help our unbelief!  Our doubt and fears don't scare God for He is bigger than we thought He was. We go to the God of all creation!  We rest in our Father's Hands and trust Him for He is God of all creation.  God speak to us!  thank you that you understand us... We praise you!  We will rest in His Hands!  



Journal entry by PAM ZAUGG

Chuck’s throat is better and he is thankful! but continues to just "not feel well", and is so thankful for everyone's prayers and cards!  He continues to say, "My life is in God's Hands." God's Word is powerful and as we take time to share Hezekiah's life we see a bigger picture in Who our God is. When we first discovered Chuck had stage 4 cancer we wept and we prayed just as Heezekiah did. This past 19 months we have worshiped with a new attitude understanding every day here is a gift to glorify God and not to be taken for granted.

We know God hears when he went before the Lord He heard and told him he will heal him!  In 2 Kings 20:4-6 Isaiah was told to tell him God has heard his prayer and seen his tears! “I, God, will heal you and three days from now you will get out of bed and go to the Temple of the Lord.  I will add fifteen years to your life and I will rescue you!” God’s people were in trouble and God said: (vs 6-7):“I will deliver you and this city from the hand of the king of Assyria. I will defend this city for My own honor and for the sake of My servant David”

As we read closer we see that God's purpose and promise to David also has a place in His decision to heal.  God knows the big picture in our lives. 
God always hears the prayers of the broken in heart, and will give health, length of days, and deliverances, as much and as long as this is according to His will.

 The first place Hezekiah went was to the Temple of the Lord to give thanks!  We must keep our focus and confidence that our lives are in God’s Hands.  He knows when Chuck’s work is done here on earth.  In this case God’s people were in need of Hezekiah’s life to rescue them.

Today we will choose to trust God and His ways are best!  We will continue to pray for healing and opportunities to serve God here longer and better.  Please take encouragement that we have freedom in knowing God knows best so will live today for Him!

Journal entry by PAM ZAUGG

Day 5:  Yesterday we read how God came and His angel killed 185,000 men. God can kill every cancer cell in Chuck’s body if that is His will. As we read on in we find that Isaiah now comes and tells the king he is about to die and needs to set his house in order.  Chuck and I have been told by both our oncologist and our radiologist it is time to sign up for hospice for there is nothing more we can do to stop this cancer.

Next we find that Isaiah now comes and tells the king in 2 Kings 20:1 “Set your affairs in order, for you are going to die.  You will not recover from this illness.”  Yesterday hospice came and we decided we need to stop and pray asking God if this is the next step He wants for us.  Chuck’s throat is worse and we have not received any sign like yesterday's reading said that God’s people would in three years be flourishing and worshiping God.

 As we read we see that the first thing Hezekiah did was face the wall... he is in his bedroom and the prophet comes in to tell him this news... his reaction is to not talk to Isaiah but to turn away from him and go to God.  Please take this example and let your reaction to death be to turn to God and God alone!  As you turn to God take time to remember how He has touched your lives and listen.  

  When Hezekiah heard this, he turned his face to the wall and prayed to the Lord, “Remember, O Lord, how I have always been faithful to You and have served You single-mindedly, always doing what pleases You.”: then he broke down and wept bitterly…  2 Kings 20:2-3 
We give God our whole hearts and now ask for wisdom in next steps.  Please pray with us!

Journal entry by PAM ZAUGG

Yesterday we were reminded to bring God our prayers...  all of them and we will know He alone is God.  We have been challenged to pray more!  Focusing on Who God is and that He hears our prayers and can rescue us empowers us! Hezekiah continues to pray and believe God will rescue them!
2 Kings 19:20-37 Prophet Isaiah predicts Judah’s deliverance.  He reminded the people that the Holy One of Israel watched as this Assyrian chief of staff speaks words against their God. He was foolish and prideful and God took care of him. He shares that our God knew long ago and planned all these events. He reminds them that God knows you well; where you stay and when you come and go.  Next He shared a sign and how God's people would worship Him.  God is in complete control and it says "The passionate commitment of the LORD of Heaven's Armies will make this happen... the angel of the LORD went out and killed 185,000 Assyrian soldiers... and the king was killed by his sons." 
 Please hear me as I share that pride is foolish and God is in complete control.  We do not want this ten day Bible plan to reflect on us in any way.  We ask God to use this to remind us of Who He is and worship God through this cancer together.  We want to listen to your thoughts and ask God to use this to reveal Who He is to each of us.  God is in complete control and we trust Him!  We pray that He kills this cancer for currently it is the battle we are fighting!  We want to worship Him in His holiness today. A sign of encouragement would be appreciated! 😊

Today Hospice comes.  Chuck is still struggling to swallow.. We had son Jon and family come visit yesterday!  

Journal entry by PAM ZAUGG

Day 3: Let God Rescue us!  Chuck's swallowing has become worse..  please pray relief...  

Yesterday we read how the enemy spread lies and accusations but we need to not listen.  We also read how Hezekiah went and apologized for what he felt he did wrong.  He was rebuilding walls to protect the city and we also repair those areas that need fixing! Chuck is struggling to swallow and we pray for relief. 

In this study the walls are being repaired and Hezekiah continues to obey God trusting Him in every detail!  When he received more negative feedback he took the letter and went to the Temple before the Lord.  He called Him LORD and asked Him for deliverance so that all the kingdoms of the earth will know He alone is God!  Doctors are not giving us any encouragement but we are praying to our LORD.

 2 Kings 19:1-19 “When King Hezekiah heard all the Assyrian chief of staff had said he the Lord… This is a day of trouble, insults, and disgrace.  It is like when a child is ready to be born but the mother has no strength to deliver the baby.  But perhaps the Lord your God has heard the Assyrian chief of staff sent boy the king to defy the living God and will punish him for his words,  Oh pray for those of us who are left!  ….  Hezekiah prayed this prayer before the Lord:  O Lord, God of Israel You are alone God of all the kingdoms of this earth.  You alone created the heavens and the earth. Bend down, O Lord, and listen!  Open Your eyes O Lord, and see!…. Now rescue us from the power and then all the kingdoms of the earth will know that You alone O Lord, are God!”  

We continue to go to Jesus and tell Him all these troubles and believe He rescues us as He did long ago. Please understand that our goal today is to share that this same Lord ALONE is God and will rescue us!  We continue to fail and need to examine our lives asking for Him to "Bend Down and Listen"   thank you for your support!  We are so blessed!
He is our God of Breakthrough..


Journal entry by PAM ZAUGG

Chuck and I claim cancer is a battle and our job is to ask God to help us make the best choices!  We trust our God is always good and His ways are always the best ways. Chuck is struggling with esophagitis and swallowing is difficult.  Doctors say this is a side affect for radiation and will pass.  Please pray for relief. Here Hezekiah is king, his people needed to repair the walls for protection, they claimed God would fight their battles.  Read  2 Kings 18:1-8 Hezekiah trusted in the Lord and remained faithful to the Lord in everything and he carefully obeyed all the commands the Lord had given.  The Lord was with him and Hezekiah had success in everything he did…. (vs 9-37) Assyria invades Judah and their king’s chief of staff taunted them and made fun of Hezekiah and told them their God would never rescue them.  He tried to bribe them with foods and prosperity, offering idols for them to trust instead of their God.  But the people were silent and did not utter a word because Hezekiah had commanded, “Do not answer them.” 

Focus as we move forward is critical. Hezekiah did what was right in the site of the Lord, he removed idols, he trusted in the Lord and kept God's commands.. defeating his enemies! We also struggle with  wanting our agenda instead of surrendering to His.   Please also pray for us to discern between what is from God and what is not and to let God fight this battle! 1 Peter 1:13 "Prepare your minds for action and exercise self control.  Put all your hope in the gracious salvation that will come to you when Jesus Christ is revealed to the world." 
 Also please share insights you receive from reading these passages for we share knowing God has brought you all around us as family and friends! 

Journal entry by PAM ZAUGG

Thank you all for coming together to pray for Chuck and myself and asking God to heal him with a miracle!  We believe our God knows us inside and out!  We believe God has a plan and each of us needs to continue to live life one day at a time.  Our lives have had a push this past few weeks into thinking about our future.  God is in control and we go to His Word to use as our lifeline!  We cannot thank you all enough for what it means to be surrounded by so many friends and family who are praying!  Your love has brought us to tears again and again.  


Just a timeline for everyone to know what happened:

Jan 21. Sunday    Chuck goes in with chest heaviness and right side weakness thinking this flu was lingering.  EKG and chest X-rays along with blood test; they asked him to come back Monday for blood tests for cholesterol and Tuesday to go to Minocqua for a stress test


Jan 23….Tuesday Chuck started stress test but doctor  stopped the test.  echogram and we stressed his right side weakness. This sent us to St Claires in Westin… a heart hospital.  

At St Claires emergency room again EKG, chest cat scan and head cat scan.  Next an MRI to head…   This showed a tumor in his brain..  now to call in neurologist along with cardiologist and oncologist.  


In the same way the Spirit helps us in our weaknesses.  We know ALL things work together for good to those who love God and are called according to His Purpose!  Rom 8:28.  God’s purpose!  Every detail.. every person… every situation has a purpose so we pray not to miss it!


Jan 24…Wednesday both Pastor Josh and Jeff came to visit and Chuck was sent for an angiogram to check his heart.  No large blockage and no stint needed!  Praising God so now we focus more on the head.. Because this is a heart hospital they tried to move us to Marshfield but beds were full.  We spent the night with heart monitors and Jeff headed to Eagle River to care for critters and do some chores..Jeff shared the ned to worship God both in good and bad:


Job 1. At this bad news Job got up, tore his robe, shaved his head, fell to the ground in worship! 


Jan 25…Thursday Chuck had three scans to check for more tumors… chest, belly and pelvic. two spots turned up on lungs.  We now were told lung cancer..  . Jeff came back and we got word there was a bed in Marshfield and a surgeon could do a biopsy there..  Jeff headed home and we headed to Marshfield. Claire Reese took over with animals & house back homeUpon meeting with doctor there were told we had to do PET scan before biopsy


Deut 20:34. Hear Israel Today you are going into battle against your enemies.  Do not be fainthearted or afraid.  Do not panic or be terrified.  For the Lord your God is the One Who goes with you to fight for you against your enemies to give you victory! 


Jan 26…Friday we await doing the PET scan and now were told they did not have the medicine to do so… and we will have to wait until Monday. 

Saturday a visit from Kris and Jack and great time in hospital together..

Jan 28  Sunday had church together 


Psalms 23. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of Death. I will fear NO evil for You are with me!  


 More visits from Jean Rockwell and friends and Eagle River friends.. Dave and Scott..  Jean shared 


Isaiah 41:6. Fear not for I am with you… Do not be dismayed.. I am your God!  I will strengthen you.  I will help you.  I will uphold you with my righteous right hand!


Jan 29…Monday PET scan and Jess, Jeff and Jon come to be with us.  We pray healing!  Good news. We have only two spots on lung and one at base of trachea.. in a lymph node.  Biopsy will not happen until Tuesday..  


Jan 30…Tuesday Jinelle and Mike come Chuck goes into surgery and Dr Wolfe gets a good piece for biopsy.. yes, it looks cancerous.  Trouble comes when he goes to take breathing tube out… Chuck had a reaction and could not breathe so he had to be intubated again… we have to stay in ICU and he must be on ventilator through the night.  This was his worse night ever… he really thought he was going to die.  


 Psalm 46. God is our refuge and strength a very present help in trouble.  Therefore we will not fear though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the depth of the sea. …..  We run to God as our Refuge but we also must   Be still and Know I am God!


Jan 31…Wednesday Tube taken out and much better…. Jinelle and Mike have to head home.  Dr Leon comes in with the news…. Stay 4 lung cancer spread to brain and lymph node,.  Only short time to live and need to send tissue to be tested for a mutation.  If it is a mutation better chance of fighting it and living longer.  Praying for that!  Sent samples out that night!  


Romans 8. Those who live by flesh set minds on flesh and those who live by the Spirit set their minds on the Spirit!  The mind of the flesh is death but the mind of the Spirit is life and peace!  … If the Spirit of Him Who raised Jesus from the dead is living right in you He who raised Christ will also give life to you!  FOCUS.  We need to keep FOCUSED. God Has THIS!  Be still… praying…. Hoping…. 


Feb 1…Thursday Jon and Tamara come and a stream of doctors visit.  Dr Leon returns to explain better and  we pray!  


Ps 34. I sought the Lord and He answered me… and delivered me from all my fears!  Those who look to Him are radiant; their faces shall never be ashamed .  The angel of the LORD encamps around those who fear Him and delivers them.  Taste and see the LORD is good!  Blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him.  Listen!  What man is there who desires life and loves many days that he may see good?  ...Seek Peace and pursue it!   When the righteous cry for help the LORD delivers them!  STOP the worry and SEEK the peace..  We are to really Taste this and allow God to work… not just push it aside and hope for the best… Taste that means swallow and really let it become part of who we are…  and radiant… yes radiation to the head~!  


Feb 2…Friday Jeff come to join us and the Gamma Knife procedure is done to Chuck’s head to start killing the tumor there!  Procedure goes well and Jeff drives along with us to Eagle River to help us settle..,  HOME SWEET HOME. It has been 10 days since we left!


Ps 128 Joy comes as we fear and respect our LORD and obey Him in all our ways.  Work hard and receive this Joy!  …. We ask the LORD to bless us and let us see the prosperity of our children and our grandchildren!  Peace!  We want to live life…. Phil 1: Whatever happens conduct yourselves in a manner worthy of the Gospel of Christ.  Stand firm in One Spirit!    Let Christ be exalted in my body whether by life or by death,  For to me to live is Christ and to die is gain!  … I am torn between the two  



Mark 9 is the story when the father brings his son to be healed… the disciples cannot do it… Jesus comes to the father who asks, But if you can do anything take pity on us and help us…. Jesus replies..If you can?  Everything is possible for one who believes,.  Immediately the father exclaimed. I DO BELIEVE. Help me with my unbelief!~. and Jesus tells disciples this kind only comes out by prayer!   Please keep praying for our faith~!  Thank you for your prayers!



Feb 3…Saturday Jeff helps with chores and Chuck settles in. We rest over the weekend. Sunday, Feb 4 we stay home

Feb 5-7….Mon-Wed Chuck rests and gains strength.    Pam had an opportunity at the Northwoods Share Community Dinner on Tuesday night to share first Valentines greetings and the love Jesus shows us is what Northwoods Share is all about!  We have a heart and want to share Jesus love with each person who we have opportunity to visit with.  Second at Valentines celebrate love in relationships!  It was with tears she mentioned her love for Chuck and challenged couples to not take that for granted!  Dr Scott Beattie shared the devo and simply share how one is saved!  Salvation is from Jesus!  At birthday bag time Pam took time to ask for prayer.  She asked who at the dinner had had cancer… and several raised their hands.  Next she shared that Chuck has cancer and it is a very bad type.  She shared their world has been changed and a big reminder that we do not know what may happen tomorrow!  She then said she wanted to take each person by the shoulders and shake them to really understand they must know that Jesus wants to save them and they must take this opportunity to ask Jesus for life in Heaven.  Father Jim prayed for Chuck and Pam and then birthday bags were a chance to celebrate life!


Psalms 41 Blessed are those who have regard for the weak for the LORD delivers them in times of trouble!  The LORD protects and preserves them.  They are counted among the blessed in the land.  He does not give them over to the desires of their foes.  The LORD sustains them on their sick bed and restores them from their bed of illness.,  I said Have mercy on me, LORD!  Heal me for I have sinned against You!


Thursday. Appointment with Doctor Gary Pusatori who basically cheered us on to live healthy and build a “big trailer” to fight this!


"Don't be afraid.  Just trust Me."
Mark 5:36 TLB

The Lord's Lighthouse
by Kathie Iselin ©
Though I long for clear skies with the sun overhead...
Once again I'm left facing dark storm clouds instead.
As wind whipped waves of frustration now wash over me...
I find myself powerless upon life's stormy sea.
Tossed about as dense fog obscures my sight...
So weary from trying to fight the good fight.
Wondering where I'm headed frantically searching for...
That bright guiding beam of Light coming from the shore.
For without this beacon to illuminate my life...
I'd lay lost and shipwrecked on the rocky shores of strife.
So I've learned to seek the Lord's Lighthouse when tempest waters roll...
In search of the Ray of Hope which brings comfort to my soul.
Clinging now to His Promises, as I would a life boat...
I feel the strength of my Savior's Love, keeping me afloat.
Discovering in my darkness, adversity's hidden key...
Which unlocks the "treasure" found in the depths of this raging sea.
For tho deep waters draw me down, the Lord's Light won't grow dim...
Enabling me to delve deeper, into the depths of Him!

"Lord, You have brought light to my life; 
my God, You light up my darkness."
Psalm 18:28 NLT


Friday  We contacted MAYO to see about the second opinion to find out they never received the paper work!  I called records in Marshfield and Peggy admitted they had missed them and they were still sitting to be sent.  Later in the day she confirmed MAYO has them now. 

Appointment with Dr Yasar oncologist in Minocqua was VERY DISAPPOINTING…. Found out the biopsy samples are still sitting in the lab in Marshfield and have not been sent out.  She apologized and just said these things happen. She offered hope that Chuck’s cancer is probably a mutation since he never smoked and that she is optimistic in treatment that could be as simple as a pill to take. She also opened the door for the cancer then to go into remission.  She then did a brief physical and stopped to point out the lymph node near his shoulder blade where she said they could always do another biopsy!  We told her the cancer had not traveled there!  She wondered why they did the bronchial biopsy~!  We felt she did not understand Chuck’s cancer


Wait and See that the Lord is GOOD~!  Be STILL and KNOW that I AM GOD!  Isaiah 40:31. Those who hope in the LORD renew their strength and sour on wings like eagles; they run and do not grow weary and walk and do not faint!


Feb 10-13 Chuck is really struggling with lack of sleep.  He is getting only 3-4 hours a night and then taking a couple naps during the day.,  His mind is moving as he wants to “get his house in order”!  The decision to sell the resort and how to move forward is overwhelming.  A neighbor has shown interest and met with us several times working on numbers and financing.    Feb 14th Valentines Day to celebrate love~!  Time together and home sweet home!


"I am lonely and
My awful worries
keep growing.
Rescue me from
Psalm 25:16, 17 CEV

"Why am I discouraged?  Why so sad?
I will put my hope in God."
Psalm 43:5 NLT

Walking through the Valley
by Kathie Iselin ©
Oh Abba Father please reach down Your strong Hand...
For this road's lonely and and I don't understand.
As Your Child, I know in all this I'm not alone...
Yet as darkness closes in I need to be shown.
The path is unfamiliar with no end in sight...
As I stumble in darkness searching for Your Light.
My heart is heavy and at times I'm filled with fear...
Please rescue and deliver me by drawing near.
Help me to rely on You trusting You know best...
Gather me close and in Your Arms let me find rest.
Surround me with Your Peace & touch me with Your Grace...
As you strengthen me for whatever I must face.
Fortify me with Your Love whenever I grow weak...
Reminding me it's through faith I gain the strength I seek.
Contend for me through this battle and in its aftermath...
By bestowing Your Wisdom as I walk this unknown path.
Illuminate the way so I can clearly see...
Revealing the hidden snares Satan's set for me.
As I walk through this valley let me not dismay...
By allowing me to feel Your Presence every day.
Please  guide me on this journey for I know not what to do...
While whispering softly to my heart come I'll carry you.

"Do not be afraid or discouraged...
For the battle is not yours, but God's."
2 Chronicles 20:15 NIV  

Sheltered Within My Fortress



Feb 15-18 Kris and Jack O’Brien come to visit.  We walked and fed the birds at Anvil Trails.  We got out but Chuck still had his afternoon nap every night for still not sleeping.  Time with friends is the best!  We enjoyed snow shoeing, playing games, and sharing together! 


Psalm 130 Out of depths (cancer fears) I cry to You LORD YHWH !  Lord Master Jehovah hear my voice and let Your ears be attentive to my cry for mercy!  If you kept record of sin who could stand? (unbelief). I wat for the LORD my whole being waits; in His Word I put my hope!  Israel (Family) put your hope in YHWH with JHWH is unfailing love and with Him is full redemption.


Feb 19 cleaning chalets and driving to Rochester (in an ice storm) for our first appointment with Dr Mansfield!  We have chosen to celebrate life and take these “get aways” as date moments so off to Rochester Inn and the Outback!  We are thankful friend Dr Mark Loehrke had a connection here and we were able to get this appointment.  We felt this was of God for Dr Mansfield was leaving that night for a month away! 


Feb 20 started with blood tests and chest xrays.  Dr Mansfield’s  PA Anne took time to really review our case.  She also showed us on the PET scan that Chuck had more spots of cancer in his body.  Both lungs and other lymph nodes have been affected.  This was disappointing as we were hoping for news that we may do radiation, but since cancer has spread we continue to pray for a mutation.  We felt Mayo is the best place for us to be! 

Dr Mansfield suggested we find an insurance plan for medications.  He said a pill would be used for some of the mutations that could cost over $10,000 a month!  Concern now crept in and we had some phone calls to make.  However before that we took lunch to review all this info at Olive Garden and enjoy each other…. We arrived at Jon and Tamara’s home for afternoon play time with Byron and Zoe!  Snow slides and dancing to music brought smiles.  Holding little Zoe and a nice meatloaf dinner together were perfect!  Wednesday we headed home vis Wausau and shopping.  Jerry had taken good care of our horses and dogs… So thankful for neighbors who are willing to help out!


"I pray that from His glorious, unlimited
resources He will empower you
with inner strength through His Spirit."
Ephesians 3:16 NLT

Your Heart's Treasure
by Kathie Iselin  ©
May your soul experience the Savior's Love - so rare and true...
And may the glory of God's Presence - touch the world around you.
May the sound of His Voice and Word, become 
your heart's treasure...
And through Him; may you experience joy in full measure.
May you walk in the Light of His Presence, each and every day...
Wrapped in the warmth and wonder, of His Love whenever you pray.
May your walk reflect a forgiving heart and listening ear...
One that seeks and follows the path, where His Spirit remains near.
May you live a life that's blessed, beyond what you have ever dreamed...
And may you have a powerful witness, so more are redeemed.
As He continues to watch over and protect from above...
May the God of all Life - keep you in the shelter of His Love.
May you forever feel awe and amazement, in His Son...
And may you never lose that child-like faith, that's now begun.
For the greatness of His Glory, now shines brightly on your face...
Radiant in the knowledge and gift of everlasting grace.

"May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too 
great to understand fully.  Then you will be made complete
with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God."
Ephesians 3:19 NLT


Feb 22-23Thursday back home and Friday we heard from the neighbor that she was no longer interested in buying The Lodge… We had been hoping to have this sold but only one hour later we received a call from a long-time family friend who said he was interested in The Lodge and three of the 4-bedroom homes to purchase and run as a resort!  God direct our steps!  Tonight we join our neighbors at a fish fry and share both our cancer story and the fact we are selling the resort.  We want to glorify God in every step! 


 Feb 24-28 Saturday and Sunday brought more time with friends as we enjoyed a game night and then time after church with friends!  It was good to be at church with our church body!  Hugs are dangerous!  So many praying friends!  The week started out with Chuck again not sleeping and him trying to figure out how to promote our homes to this future buyer.  Many phone calls and good communication with hopes!  Time to wait again for life takes time to figure things out and we were told an answer by March 20th.     


Monday Feb 26 we received the c all we have been waiting for… yes, we have a mutation… BUT. It is ERBB2 and very rare with no cure!  Good news/bad news…. We believe there is a reason and pray for a cure!


Deut 30:19. “Choose Life!  Love the Lord, Listen and Hold Fast to Him! “

Psalm 130:5. “I wait for the LORD, with my whole being I wait!  In His Word I put my hope!”

Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, Plans to prosper you and not to harm you; plans to give you hope and a future!  Then you will call on Me and come and pray to Me and I will listen to you!  You seek Me and find Me when you seek Me with all your heart!  I will be found by you, declares the Lord, and will bring you back from captivity (cancer).


Thursday March 1 after cleaning a chalet and plowing we head to Mayo for our first chemo treatment!  Again these are date opportunities so we started out with a special stop at Eagle Roasters for a special coffee!  Upon turning into the parking lot we were greeted by Father Jim Fosdick from St Mary of the Snow…. He wanted us to know many are praying and asked if he could pray for us~!  YES!  Next he prayed the prayer of Hezekiah that God would grant Chuck 15 more years and heal him!~. We were thankful and after parking entered the back shop looking for owner Dan Beihoff to say hi to him.  Dan had time to share with us a very special painting that his grandfather had had made!  It was about his grandmother having cancer and his grandfather had asked God to heal her!  The painting is a picture of the Holy Spirit in form of a dove, the cross and the light with the triangle of the trinity! 


John 14:25,26 “These things I have spoken to you while yet dwelling with you.  But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, he will teach you all things, and bring to your mind whatever I have said to you.”….


We were blessed and Dan handed us cards to share with others.  He shared that people have been healed from cancer with this painting and the truth it represents and Chuck is the next one!   Next as getting our coffee we saw two gals whom both said they had been praying for us!  They shared God’s work in healing and anointing oil!   One said she had some oil for us to use from a “Liquid Bible” that has proven healing!  Now we are on the road to study a book given to us to read by friends who felt God had shown truths to share about holistic ways to fight cancer!  One struck us that is approved by FDA… Flax hulls…??  God lead us! 


Thursday night we checked into he Quality Inn and a date night to Applebys!  Friday morning early starts chemo and we were up very early ready to check in at Mayo at 8 AM!


March 2 we me with PA Anne who again answered many questions now that we had received the word about ERBB2 found out yes, she has treated this but it all depends on the person as does how chemo affects one.. Dr Mansfield has prescribed a combo of chemo therapy and immune therapy for Chuck.  Chemo started at 11:30 and we entered the chemo side of Mayo Clinic.  Folks here are so very nice and helpful.  We were to be here 4 hours and yes, treated with a three-way cocktail!  Chemo Cocktail! First IV for 30 minutes pembrolizumab (Ketruda) Second IV after 30 minute break pemetrexed (Alimta) Third IV after 30 minute break is Carboplatin for 30 minutes.   DONE~!  We head to the truck and Chuck is feeling well enough to drive home!  Stopping only at Arbys for supper we arrived home by 9:30.  We took time on the way home to read and discuss Hezekiah’s story:


2 Kings 18-20 Hezekiah becomes king and is a good king following in David’s ways.  He put his whole trust in the God of Israel.  There was no king like him either before or after and he held fast to God.  He never loosened his grip and obeyed to the letter all God commanded!    Bad things happened because Israel would not listen to God.  Hezekiah tells the king of Assyria Israel was wrong and would pay them back   Hezekiah made bad choices by taking silver from God’s temple and then Hezekiah tears his robe and goes into the temple. Hezekiah prayed to God.  Maker of Heaven and Earth!  Open your ears and listen and open your eyes and hear, SAVE US~!  You are God…. Thant night the angel of God came and massacred 185,000 Assyrians!  Next Hezekiah gets sick and Isaiah comes to tell him, “Put your affairs in order for you are about to die!”  Hezekiah prays to God,  “Remember God who I am and what I have done.  I’ve lived honest before you and my heart has been true and steady.  I’ve lived to please You.”  Hezekiah wept and Isaiah then heard from God “Go back and tell Hezekiah I have listened and seen your tears.  I am going to heal you!  In 3 days you will walk on your own legs into the Temple of God.  I have added 15 years to your life!”  Next they boiled a fig plaster and applied it to eh king and he was on his way to recovery.  However he asked how to know this is of God or not just the fig plaster?…. He asked for a sign and then Isaiah asked do you want God to advance the shadow on the stairs 10 degrees or have it go back 10 degrees?  Hezekiah thought it too easy to go forward so asked for it to go back and the shadow went back.. The story goes on..


Saturday March 3 we thanked Jerry for his help and had him and Sioux over for dinner and Sunday we went to church again with Chuck feeling great!  Monday March 5th  …. Jinelle gave birth to her second son.. our 10th grandchild Rory Randall Siergiej!  NEW LIFE~! 

We celebrate with Jinelle and Mike!  However Chuck is not feeling as well and fever starts climbing…. By night time to 99.9 and we pray it goes down…. Our doctor gave strict instructions if fever goes to 100.5 you must go to the emergency room!  Thanking God it went down.  Chuck is now starting to sleep for got some perscription sleeping aids and finally more sleep!~


Tuesday was another day Chuck just did not feel well and had low grade fever with it again rising at night.  He is now taking 2-3 naps per day as well as sleeping 7 hours at night!  Thankfully temp went down again later evening.  Pam went to the community dinner again and was greeted by many folks from 3 Lakes Free Church with hugs of encouragement and wanting her to know they are praying!  Coming home that night Chuck was not happy with the hugs!  We must beware of infection and germs….  He slept well again!  Wednesday at Needs Ministry Pam is much more careful and when guests came in coughing she left and went home!  Chuck seems better and continues to take naps and sleep better.  Thursday and Friday both find him feeling stronger and no temp! 












Chuck’s Story

Site created on March 8, 2018

Thank you for taking time to understand more what is happening in Chuck's life! This cancer has been a huge shock and reminder that no one knows what may happen tomorrow! Our hopes in sharing is to keep clear communication every step along this adventure. We are so thankful for you, our family and friends! We also want to pray for you in your lives, so please share how we can give back to you in this way, Chuck and Pam