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Journal entry by PAM ZAUGG

Thank you Zaugg Support Team for all your prayers and cards!  Pain management has become a bit of a contest to see which part of the body wins.  Hospice has added oxygen, morphine and stronger pain patches.  Chuck's poor body is consumed with all of this, and even though he has always liked competition, this is really tough!  Pray for me to be a good nurse for him & for perseverance!  Competitions have been fun in the past: Basketball, tennis, hockey... Pray for his body to fight and to want LIFE!  Pray for us to be a team, together with each of you, praying and trusting.

While Jeff and Jon were here they shared Deuteronomy 30 with their Dad: 

V19 “This day I call heaven and earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you LIFE and DEATH, blessings and curses. Now choose LIFE, so that you and your children may LIVE.  V20 “and that you may love the Lord you God, listen to his voice, and hold fast to him. For the Lord is your LIFE, and he will give you many years in the land he swore to give your fathers.."   Choose Life!  We pray for life! 


We know that the only answer to this battle is a Miracle...  Northwoods paradise here or PARADISE in Heaven...
 We continue to claim we are in God's Hands!  He never makes mistakes, and when we are weak He is strong as we cling to His Presence!  

Today I see the trees are absolutely filled with colors of reds, oranges, yellows and greens. We live in a Northwoods paradise and it is truly beautiful! God wants us to see Him and trust Him, and we will take time to do just that!  Join us and pray miracles..  Join us and cling to Jesus and His Holy Spirit, Who is here with us!  Each day we pray for that miracle of healing to happen and, PARADISE or paradise, either is perfect for God is in control. 
  “Be Still and Know I AM GOD”  Psalms 46:10. 

 

 

 

 

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Journal entry by PAM ZAUGG

Brother Larry from SC came to visit and sons Jeff and Jon from MN came to visit, to work, and to allow me to take a quick trip to Rockford on Wednesday!  Chuck has struggled with medicines and pain management.  However he had a great time with three of his very favorite men..

 Jeff and Jon decided to take away their Dad's worries about docks and the boat, and they worked with our manager Steve and a friend to get all ready for winter. We are thankful and have never such warm weather to take out docks!  

Chuck and I had hoped to take a trip to Rockford to celebrate a very special event with my dad (age 90) and family, but Chuck is just not well enough.  However our boys decided their mom needed to go so off I went to let these boys handle things for a day.  Chuck ate three meals, took a golf cart ride & a boat ride, and they had many special times of sharing!  I drove to Rockford in time for a great visit with my dad, saw him give a precious presentation, soaked in time with the Nyquist family, and was back home before bedtime!

Our family just finished a Bible study on www.thebible.com called "Whisper: How to Hear the Voice of God" and concluded that none of us has 'heard' what God's plans are, BUT we will continue to draw closer and closer to God to listen better, and we will continue to read His Word and do what it says one day at a time.  

 

Isaiah 30:15  This is what the Sovereign Lord, the Holy One of Israel, says: “Only in returning to me

and resting in me will you be saved.  In quietness and confidence is your strength… 18So the Lord must wait for you to come to him so he can show you his love and compassion. For the Lord is a faithful God.

Blessed are those who wait for his help...19O people of Zion, who live in Jerusalem, you will weep no more. He will be gracious if you ask for help. He will surely respond to the sound of your cries...21Your own ears will hear him."


Thank you all for your support, and please keep praying for God's healing and His miracle in PARADISE or our Northwood's paradise!

Journal entry by PAM ZAUGG

Chuck has been fighting a gagging/coughing attacking from mucous building in his throat.  Our Nurse Amanda came to check his lungs finding them clear and also showed us how to use the oxygen machine if needed.  Please pray relief from these for it is hard to breathe when they happen and takes so much out of Chuck!  

 We received a print from a friend in the mail this week that pictures Jesus on the road to Emmaus.  This was to represent the time in Jesus life after He had died and his friends had given up all hope!  He joined two friends (without them knowing who he was) as they walked and talked about life happenings.  Thank you Fritz for this gift for it reminds us that God uses the Bible to open our eyes to truth and He also will open our eyes to understanding His ways!  He is walking with us on this journey!

Luke 24 says when Jesus was walking  vs 25-26 “He opened up Scripture to them…. vs 31 He opened their eyes and they recognized Him… vs 38-45 He opened up their minds to understanding … 47 He opened up their lives to forgiveness and lastly vs 49 He opened up their hearts to the Holy Spirit to fill them & give them power”...HOPE!

Thank you for your cards and gifts of soup and pictures with memories!  Thank you for visits for it is good to spend time with you!  Timing is difficult between Chuck's napping, but as you are flexible we are so thankful for your visits!  We ask God to open up our life to His ways and see a Holy Spirit peace covering our home!  We pray that power of Miraculous healing and to recognize Jesus today as He is on this road with us! We want to share this hope with each of you in your own lives today.

Journal entry by PAM ZAUGG

This past week we have been working on a balance between relieving pain and stopping constipation!  Hopefully we have things "moving"!  Day to day Chuck has been sleeping more and we pray that means fighting those tumors off!  We continue to have good talks with our family keeping us all engaged that first we worship God and understand His ways are Always the best!  


 



Isaiah 55:8-9. “For My thoughts are not your thoughts neither are your ways My ways” declares the Lord. “ As the heavens are higher than the earth so My ways are higher than your ways and My thoughts thank your thoughts.  My Word will accomplish what I desire.  You will go out in joy and be led forth in peace!” 

Thank you all for also 
walking with us!  We pray that you see how much God cares about you and wants to be involved deeply in each of your lives, as he is in ours!  Worship Him!  Chuck's go to is "God has me in His Hands!"  We pray the same for each of you!

https://youtu.be/vvzhChnHWYo.
This song talks about the finish line and not being afraid.  Chuck has no fear!  It says "Can I believe when I don't see.. Can I really let it be out of my hands?  This isn't what I'd choose but it's where I'm finding You.  When I'm broken and undone Your mercy's just begun.  You overcome my doubt Your hands are reaching out.  You hold me through the storm and I will fear no more!"

https://youtu.be/3cJFAGw3OaQ

This is just another link that has the words with the music.  Be blessed!  

I am including a picture today...Fall is coming here in our Northwoods and as the leaves die to their selves shut down the flow-um) they become beautiful!  It is a reminder to me to let God bring the beautiful colors out!





 

Journal entry by PAM ZAUGG

Yesterday Hospice brought us oxygen (in case it is needed in future), a walker (Chuck's balance needs help), and an air bed (total surprise!).  We were not going to take the bed for thought we do not need this...  however after reconsidering and seeing it in the truck waiting to be unloaded decided yes.. let's put it in the great room under the bird feeder and try it.  
Chuck is finding the air bed is a good gift and helps his shoulder and back pain!  He slept comfortably and even has a tray to help him eat easier! Birds come and go to remind us God cares about them.. surely He has every detail for us covered!

As a family we struggle with these new items as heading a direction we do not want to go for we are praying healing and for God to build our faith. However this morning as we, together are studying passages on healing, God's Word gave us confirmation:  James 1:17 "Every good and perfect gift is from above; it comes down from the Father of lights who does not change like shifting shadows.."   We did not even order this bed.. it is a gift to accept and we say thank you! 

We continue to ask 
God to heal and use His Word in our lives:  
Proverbs 4:20-22. “My son pay attention to what I say!  Turn your ears to My Words.  Do not let them out of your sight.  Keep them within your heart for they are life to those who find them and health to ones whole body!”  
 Thank you all for cards and for the Bible verses you have shared!  I am sharing a couple in photos!  They are life!  Believe them!


Isaiah 33:2  “Lord, be gracious to us.  We long for You!  Be our strength every morning our salvation in times of distress!”  We pray for you also and that you know the salvation our Lord gives to each of us!  This is the peace Chuck speaks of and he wants to share with you all!  

Journal entry by PAM ZAUGG

Hospice came today and we are all signed up. Their assessment is Chuck is hurting more than he lets on and his oxygen is a BIT low so they are bringing both oxygen and a walker tomorrow morning. Nurse evaluated Chuck and thinks pain is from cancer in his organs. She has increased pain meds again. His back and stomach are hurting. Nauseousness makes it tough to eat. We continue to pray miracles!

Hebrews 4:16 “Let us come boldly before the throne of grace.  There we will receive mercy and will find grace to help when needed most.” God's grace and mercy carry us as we believe He does the work and we trust Him. Psalm 103:1-5 “Praise the Lord oh my soul and all my inner being.  Praise His Holy Name and forget not all His benefits.  Who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases.  Who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion.  Who satisfies your desires with good things so your youth is renewed like the eagle's”

God please forgive us our sins... Remove any doubts and let us Claim Who God is and that our God heals! 

Jeff came for a quick visit and was put to work chain sawing wood and moving rafts/boats. We had time together sharing memories and praying miracles. Our guests at the resort commented that they have seen 3 eagles today!  Yes Chuck needs the strength to focus and to let God help him soar!

 

Journal entry by PAM ZAUGG

We have moved back into our home with big thanks to our daughters Jessie and Jinelle!  Time together these last couple days has been precious.  Thank you to their husbands, Kendal and Mike, for sharing their precious wives!  Thanks too to nephew Duane stopping by with son Justin & wife Lisa with their twins to visit!  Family is PRECIOUS! 

Jessie's Father-in-love has been a big encourager to keep the faith and pray healing, so that is just what our focus is going to be!  We have decided stop the tests and trips to the doctor, and to call hospice in to help.  Our friend/doctor stopped by today to assure us this will IMPROVE Chuck's QUALITY OF LIFE as it helps with pain control and living aids. In the mean time our family is doing a Bible study together called "How to Experience Healing" on   www.bible.com

 We will choose to worship God as we pray healing knowing Who God is! Philippians 4 says to “Rejoice in the Lord ALWAYS, again I say Rejoice! … The Lord is near…  Do not worry about anything; Pray about everything.  Pray with thanksgiving as you make your requests known to God and the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, stands guard over your hearts and minds in Jesus.”

Journal entry by PAM ZAUGG

Today we picked up a 72 hour pain patch to try to regulate pain.  Pain seems to come and go and that makes it difficult to keep focus and claim God's Promises! 

As a family we are studying a Bible study called "Incredible Faith" (on the Bible.com). It shared the picture of monkey bars and how we must let go of one bar before reaching to the other.  Letting go is hard!  When discussing this with Chuck I reminded how we hold onto our grandkids as they let go.  I asked him, "How do we do this? What do we let hold us?" His response seemed so simple for he said, "Why we can only hold onto Jesus!"  Then his next comment was, "Do not lean on our own understanding!"  Such a wise man I am married to~!  

Focus is also hard but these verses say so much about contentment:    Phil 4 ...“Rejoice in the Lord ALWAYS again I say REJOICE!… Pray about everything and the Peace of God will transcend all understanding!  Thanks to God for I am not in need for I have learned to be content in all… (in pain and in comfort) in need and in plenty; when fed or when hungry; I can do all things through Him… My God will supply ALL your needs according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus!” 

Today we also move back into our home!  We look forward to help from Jessie and Jinelle and are thankful for the time we have had this summer in chalet #5.  We are also thankful for the resort and all our guests whom have showed their love and shared their prayers with us.  Our manager, Steve, has carried Chuck's load and more in caring for Zauggs Resort and we are so blessed!  Yes, content in every situation.. but please keep praying for relief of pain and don't give up on the miracle of healing!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gmm8ETk70lg



Journal entry by PAM ZAUGG

Chuck had the cat scan today and bones in back are fine; No sign of any compression; with no more tumors... but cancer has spread in lungs, stomach, liver, and adrenal glands. Plans are to get a pain patch to help better with pain and move up the MRI. First step is Chuck needs to get pain under control. Nothing is too difficult for God and we KNOW He is in control. In Mark 4 we read the story that the ruler Jairus has to wait for Jesus to come and heal. His daughter died before getting healed!  We will live life to the end!  Pray for Chuck and all of us processing.  We want God to be glorified and trust He knows how that is to best happen, but we sure would love to have Chuck wake up tomorrow as a healed man!

Journal entry by PAM ZAUGG

Pain is a powerful force and Chuck is now on a double dose of pain medication.  We are fighting together to keep focus as we wait for God's timing, God's way, as God is our Father!  

Isaiah 9 reminds us that Light will shine in the darkness and there will be a Great Light coming!  Like the joy and jubilation of harvest men will rejoice!  For to us a Child is born to us a Son is given and the government will be on His shoulders,  His name is Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace… and the zeal of the Lord of Hosts will accomplish this!

Wonderful Counselor lead us in wisdom, Mighty God heal us with miracles, Everlasting Father parent us a children, and Prince of Peace let us rest in Your peace as we trust in You!  Keep the zeal of the Lord in this home and in our family as together we unite praying miracles!

Journal entry by PAM ZAUGG

Thank you all for coming together to pray for Chuck and myself and asking God to heal him with a miracle!  We believe our God knows us inside and out!  We believe God has a plan and each of us needs to continue to live life one day at a time.  Our lives have had a push this past few weeks into thinking about our future.  God is in control and we go to His Word to use as our lifeline!  We cannot thank you all enough for what it means to be surrounded by so many friends and family who are praying!  Your love has brought us to tears again and again.  

 

Just a timeline for everyone to know what happened:

Jan 21. Sunday    Chuck goes in with chest heaviness and right side weakness thinking this flu was lingering.  EKG and chest X-rays along with blood test; they asked him to come back Monday for blood tests for cholesterol and Tuesday to go to Minocqua for a stress test

 

Jan 23….Tuesday Chuck started stress test but doctor  stopped the test.  echogram and we stressed his right side weakness. This sent us to St Claires in Westin… a heart hospital.  

At St Claires emergency room again EKG, chest cat scan and head cat scan.  Next an MRI to head…   This showed a tumor in his brain..  now to call in neurologist along with cardiologist and oncologist.  

 

In the same way the Spirit helps us in our weaknesses.  We know ALL things work together for good to those who love God and are called according to His Purpose!  Rom 8:28.  God’s purpose!  Every detail.. every person… every situation has a purpose so we pray not to miss it!

 

Jan 24…Wednesday both Pastor Josh and Jeff came to visit and Chuck was sent for an angiogram to check his heart.  No large blockage and no stint needed!  Praising God so now we focus more on the head.. Because this is a heart hospital they tried to move us to Marshfield but beds were full.  We spent the night with heart monitors and Jeff headed to Eagle River to care for critters and do some chores..Jeff shared the ned to worship God both in good and bad:

 

Job 1. At this bad news Job got up, tore his robe, shaved his head, fell to the ground in worship! 

 

Jan 25…Thursday Chuck had three scans to check for more tumors… chest, belly and pelvic. two spots turned up on lungs.  We now were told lung cancer..  . Jeff came back and we got word there was a bed in Marshfield and a surgeon could do a biopsy there..  Jeff headed home and we headed to Marshfield. Claire Reese took over with animals & house back homeUpon meeting with doctor there were told we had to do PET scan before biopsy

 

Deut 20:34. Hear Israel Today you are going into battle against your enemies.  Do not be fainthearted or afraid.  Do not panic or be terrified.  For the Lord your God is the One Who goes with you to fight for you against your enemies to give you victory! 

 

Jan 26…Friday we await doing the PET scan and now were told they did not have the medicine to do so… and we will have to wait until Monday. 

Saturday a visit from Kris and Jack and great time in hospital together..

Jan 28  Sunday had church together 

 

Psalms 23. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of Death. I will fear NO evil for You are with me!  

 

 More visits from Jean Rockwell and friends and Eagle River friends.. Dave and Scott..  Jean shared 

 

Isaiah 41:6. Fear not for I am with you… Do not be dismayed.. I am your God!  I will strengthen you.  I will help you.  I will uphold you with my righteous right hand!

 

Jan 29…Monday PET scan and Jess, Jeff and Jon come to be with us.  We pray healing!  Good news. We have only two spots on lung and one at base of trachea.. in a lymph node.  Biopsy will not happen until Tuesday..  

 

Jan 30…Tuesday Jinelle and Mike come Chuck goes into surgery and Dr Wolfe gets a good piece for biopsy.. yes, it looks cancerous.  Trouble comes when he goes to take breathing tube out… Chuck had a reaction and could not breathe so he had to be intubated again… we have to stay in ICU and he must be on ventilator through the night.  This was his worse night ever… he really thought he was going to die.  

 

 Psalm 46. God is our refuge and strength a very present help in trouble.  Therefore we will not fear though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the depth of the sea. …..  We run to God as our Refuge but we also must   Be still and Know I am God!

 

Jan 31…Wednesday Tube taken out and much better…. Jinelle and Mike have to head home.  Dr Leon comes in with the news…. Stay 4 lung cancer spread to brain and lymph node,.  Only short time to live and need to send tissue to be tested for a mutation.  If it is a mutation better chance of fighting it and living longer.  Praying for that!  Sent samples out that night!  

 

Romans 8. Those who live by flesh set minds on flesh and those who live by the Spirit set their minds on the Spirit!  The mind of the flesh is death but the mind of the Spirit is life and peace!  … If the Spirit of Him Who raised Jesus from the dead is living right in you He who raised Christ will also give life to you!  FOCUS.  We need to keep FOCUSED. God Has THIS!  Be still… praying…. Hoping…. 

 

Feb 1…Thursday Jon and Tamara come and a stream of doctors visit.  Dr Leon returns to explain better and  we pray!  

 

Ps 34. I sought the Lord and He answered me… and delivered me from all my fears!  Those who look to Him are radiant; their faces shall never be ashamed .  The angel of the LORD encamps around those who fear Him and delivers them.  Taste and see the LORD is good!  Blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him.  Listen!  What man is there who desires life and loves many days that he may see good?  ...Seek Peace and pursue it!   When the righteous cry for help the LORD delivers them!  STOP the worry and SEEK the peace..  We are to really Taste this and allow God to work… not just push it aside and hope for the best… Taste that means swallow and really let it become part of who we are…  and radiant… yes radiation to the head~!  

 

Feb 2…Friday Jeff come to join us and the Gamma Knife procedure is done to Chuck’s head to start killing the tumor there!  Procedure goes well and Jeff drives along with us to Eagle River to help us settle..,  HOME SWEET HOME. It has been 10 days since we left!

 

Ps 128 Joy comes as we fear and respect our LORD and obey Him in all our ways.  Work hard and receive this Joy!  …. We ask the LORD to bless us and let us see the prosperity of our children and our grandchildren!  Peace!  We want to live life…. Phil 1: Whatever happens conduct yourselves in a manner worthy of the Gospel of Christ.  Stand firm in One Spirit!    Let Christ be exalted in my body whether by life or by death,  For to me to live is Christ and to die is gain!  … I am torn between the two  

 

GOD HAS THIS~!    

Mark 9 is the story when the father brings his son to be healed… the disciples cannot do it… Jesus comes to the father who asks, But if you can do anything take pity on us and help us…. Jesus replies..If you can?  Everything is possible for one who believes,.  Immediately the father exclaimed. I DO BELIEVE. Help me with my unbelief!~. and Jesus tells disciples this kind only comes out by prayer!   Please keep praying for our faith~!  Thank you for your prayers!

 

 

Feb 3…Saturday Jeff helps with chores and Chuck settles in. We rest over the weekend. Sunday, Feb 4 we stay home

Feb 5-7….Mon-Wed Chuck rests and gains strength.    Pam had an opportunity at the Northwoods Share Community Dinner on Tuesday night to share first Valentines greetings and the love Jesus shows us is what Northwoods Share is all about!  We have a heart and want to share Jesus love with each person who we have opportunity to visit with.  Second at Valentines celebrate love in relationships!  It was with tears she mentioned her love for Chuck and challenged couples to not take that for granted!  Dr Scott Beattie shared the devo and simply share how one is saved!  Salvation is from Jesus!  At birthday bag time Pam took time to ask for prayer.  She asked who at the dinner had had cancer… and several raised their hands.  Next she shared that Chuck has cancer and it is a very bad type.  She shared their world has been changed and a big reminder that we do not know what may happen tomorrow!  She then said she wanted to take each person by the shoulders and shake them to really understand they must know that Jesus wants to save them and they must take this opportunity to ask Jesus for life in Heaven.  Father Jim prayed for Chuck and Pam and then birthday bags were a chance to celebrate life!

 

Psalms 41 Blessed are those who have regard for the weak for the LORD delivers them in times of trouble!  The LORD protects and preserves them.  They are counted among the blessed in the land.  He does not give them over to the desires of their foes.  The LORD sustains them on their sick bed and restores them from their bed of illness.,  I said Have mercy on me, LORD!  Heal me for I have sinned against You!

 

Thursday. Appointment with Doctor Gary Pusatori who basically cheered us on to live healthy and build a “big trailer” to fight this!

 


"Don't be afraid.  Just trust Me."
Mark 5:36 TLB


The Lord's Lighthouse
by Kathie Iselin ©    fromPapaGod.com
Though I long for clear skies with the sun overhead...
Once again I'm left facing dark storm clouds instead.
As wind whipped waves of frustration now wash over me...
I find myself powerless upon life's stormy sea.
Tossed about as dense fog obscures my sight...
So weary from trying to fight the good fight.
Wondering where I'm headed frantically searching for...
That bright guiding beam of Light coming from the shore.
For without this beacon to illuminate my life...
I'd lay lost and shipwrecked on the rocky shores of strife.
So I've learned to seek the Lord's Lighthouse when tempest waters roll...
In search of the Ray of Hope which brings comfort to my soul.
Clinging now to His Promises, as I would a life boat...
I feel the strength of my Savior's Love, keeping me afloat.
Discovering in my darkness, adversity's hidden key...
Which unlocks the "treasure" found in the depths of this raging sea.
For tho deep waters draw me down, the Lord's Light won't grow dim...
Enabling me to delve deeper, into the depths of Him!

"Lord, You have brought light to my life; 
my God, You light up my darkness."
Psalm 18:28 NLT


 


Friday  We contacted MAYO to see about the second opinion to find out they never received the paper work!  I called records in Marshfield and Peggy admitted they had missed them and they were still sitting to be sent.  Later in the day she confirmed MAYO has them now. 

Appointment with Dr Yasar oncologist in Minocqua was VERY DISAPPOINTING…. Found out the biopsy samples are still sitting in the lab in Marshfield and have not been sent out.  She apologized and just said these things happen. She offered hope that Chuck’s cancer is probably a mutation since he never smoked and that she is optimistic in treatment that could be as simple as a pill to take. She also opened the door for the cancer then to go into remission.  She then did a brief physical and stopped to point out the lymph node near his shoulder blade where she said they could always do another biopsy!  We told her the cancer had not traveled there!  She wondered why they did the bronchial biopsy~!  We felt she did not understand Chuck’s cancer

 

Wait and See that the Lord is GOOD~!  Be STILL and KNOW that I AM GOD!  Isaiah 40:31. Those who hope in the LORD renew their strength and sour on wings like eagles; they run and do not grow weary and walk and do not faint!

 

Feb 10-13 Chuck is really struggling with lack of sleep.  He is getting only 3-4 hours a night and then taking a couple naps during the day.,  His mind is moving as he wants to “get his house in order”!  The decision to sell the resort and how to move forward is overwhelming.  A neighbor has shown interest and met with us several times working on numbers and financing.    Feb 14th Valentines Day to celebrate love~!  Time together and home sweet home!

 


"I am lonely and
troubled.
My awful worries
keep growing.
Rescue me from
sadness."
Psalm 25:16, 17 CEV


"Why am I discouraged?  Why so sad?
I will put my hope in God."
Psalm 43:5 NLT


Walking through the Valley
by Kathie Iselin ©  fromPapaGod.com
Oh Abba Father please reach down Your strong Hand...
For this road's lonely and and I don't understand.
As Your Child, I know in all this I'm not alone...
Yet as darkness closes in I need to be shown.
The path is unfamiliar with no end in sight...
As I stumble in darkness searching for Your Light.
My heart is heavy and at times I'm filled with fear...
Please rescue and deliver me by drawing near.
Help me to rely on You trusting You know best...
Gather me close and in Your Arms let me find rest.
Surround me with Your Peace & touch me with Your Grace...
As you strengthen me for whatever I must face.
Fortify me with Your Love whenever I grow weak...
Reminding me it's through faith I gain the strength I seek.
Contend for me through this battle and in its aftermath...
By bestowing Your Wisdom as I walk this unknown path.
Illuminate the way so I can clearly see...
Revealing the hidden snares Satan's set for me.
As I walk through this valley let me not dismay...
By allowing me to feel Your Presence every day.
Please  guide me on this journey for I know not what to do...
While whispering softly to my heart come I'll carry you.

"Do not be afraid or discouraged...
For the battle is not yours, but God's."
2 Chronicles 20:15 NIV  

Sheltered Within My Fortress
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Feb 15-18 Kris and Jack O’Brien come to visit.  We walked and fed the birds at Anvil Trails.  We got out but Chuck still had his afternoon nap every night for still not sleeping.  Time with friends is the best!  We enjoyed snow shoeing, playing games, and sharing together! 

 

Psalm 130 Out of depths (cancer fears) I cry to You LORD YHWH !  Lord Master Jehovah hear my voice and let Your ears be attentive to my cry for mercy!  If you kept record of sin who could stand? (unbelief). I wat for the LORD my whole being waits; in His Word I put my hope!  Israel (Family) put your hope in YHWH with JHWH is unfailing love and with Him is full redemption.

 

Feb 19 cleaning chalets and driving to Rochester (in an ice storm) for our first appointment with Dr Mansfield!  We have chosen to celebrate life and take these “get aways” as date moments so off to Rochester Inn and the Outback!  We are thankful friend Dr Mark Loehrke had a connection here and we were able to get this appointment.  We felt this was of God for Dr Mansfield was leaving that night for a month away! 

 

Feb 20 started with blood tests and chest xrays.  Dr Mansfield’s  PA Anne took time to really review our case.  She also showed us on the PET scan that Chuck had more spots of cancer in his body.  Both lungs and other lymph nodes have been affected.  This was disappointing as we were hoping for news that we may do radiation, but since cancer has spread we continue to pray for a mutation.  We felt Mayo is the best place for us to be! 

Dr Mansfield suggested we find an insurance plan for medications.  He said a pill would be used for some of the mutations that could cost over $10,000 a month!  Concern now crept in and we had some phone calls to make.  However before that we took lunch to review all this info at Olive Garden and enjoy each other…. We arrived at Jon and Tamara’s home for afternoon play time with Byron and Zoe!  Snow slides and dancing to music brought smiles.  Holding little Zoe and a nice meatloaf dinner together were perfect!  Wednesday we headed home vis Wausau and shopping.  Jerry had taken good care of our horses and dogs… So thankful for neighbors who are willing to help out!

 


"I pray that from His glorious, unlimited
resources He will empower you
with inner strength through His Spirit."
Ephesians 3:16 NLT


Your Heart's Treasure
by Kathie Iselin  ©   fromPapaGod.com
May your soul experience the Savior's Love - so rare and true...
And may the glory of God's Presence - touch the world around you.
May the sound of His Voice and Word, become 
your heart's treasure...
And through Him; may you experience joy in full measure.
May you walk in the Light of His Presence, each and every day...
Wrapped in the warmth and wonder, of His Love whenever you pray.
May your walk reflect a forgiving heart and listening ear...
One that seeks and follows the path, where His Spirit remains near.
May you live a life that's blessed, beyond what you have ever dreamed...
And may you have a powerful witness, so more are redeemed.
As He continues to watch over and protect from above...
May the God of all Life - keep you in the shelter of His Love.
May you forever feel awe and amazement, in His Son...
And may you never lose that child-like faith, that's now begun.
For the greatness of His Glory, now shines brightly on your face...
Radiant in the knowledge and gift of everlasting grace.

"May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too 
great to understand fully.  Then you will be made complete
with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God."
Ephesians 3:19 NLT


 

Feb 22-23Thursday back home and Friday we heard from the neighbor that she was no longer interested in buying The Lodge… We had been hoping to have this sold but only one hour later we received a call from a long-time family friend who said he was interested in The Lodge and three of the 4-bedroom homes to purchase and run as a resort!  God direct our steps!  Tonight we join our neighbors at a fish fry and share both our cancer story and the fact we are selling the resort.  We want to glorify God in every step! 

 

 Feb 24-28 Saturday and Sunday brought more time with friends as we enjoyed a game night and then time after church with friends!  It was good to be at church with our church body!  Hugs are dangerous!  So many praying friends!  The week started out with Chuck again not sleeping and him trying to figure out how to promote our homes to this future buyer.  Many phone calls and good communication with hopes!  Time to wait again for life takes time to figure things out and we were told an answer by March 20th.     

 

Monday Feb 26 we received the c all we have been waiting for… yes, we have a mutation… BUT. It is ERBB2 and very rare with no cure!  Good news/bad news…. We believe there is a reason and pray for a cure!

 

Deut 30:19. “Choose Life!  Love the Lord, Listen and Hold Fast to Him! “

Psalm 130:5. “I wait for the LORD, with my whole being I wait!  In His Word I put my hope!”

Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, Plans to prosper you and not to harm you; plans to give you hope and a future!  Then you will call on Me and come and pray to Me and I will listen to you!  You seek Me and find Me when you seek Me with all your heart!  I will be found by you, declares the Lord, and will bring you back from captivity (cancer).

 

Thursday March 1 after cleaning a chalet and plowing we head to Mayo for our first chemo treatment!  Again these are date opportunities so we started out with a special stop at Eagle Roasters for a special coffee!  Upon turning into the parking lot we were greeted by Father Jim Fosdick from St Mary of the Snow…. He wanted us to know many are praying and asked if he could pray for us~!  YES!  Next he prayed the prayer of Hezekiah that God would grant Chuck 15 more years and heal him!~. We were thankful and after parking entered the back shop looking for owner Dan Beihoff to say hi to him.  Dan had time to share with us a very special painting that his grandfather had had made!  It was about his grandmother having cancer and his grandfather had asked God to heal her!  The painting is a picture of the Holy Spirit in form of a dove, the cross and the light with the triangle of the trinity! 

 

John 14:25,26 “These things I have spoken to you while yet dwelling with you.  But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, he will teach you all things, and bring to your mind whatever I have said to you.”….

 

We were blessed and Dan handed us cards to share with others.  He shared that people have been healed from cancer with this painting and the truth it represents and Chuck is the next one!   Next as getting our coffee we saw two gals whom both said they had been praying for us!  They shared God’s work in healing and anointing oil!   One said she had some oil for us to use from a “Liquid Bible” that has proven healing!  Now we are on the road to study a book given to us to read by friends who felt God had shown truths to share about holistic ways to fight cancer!  One struck us that is approved by FDA… Flax hulls…??  God lead us! 

 

Thursday night we checked into he Quality Inn and a date night to Applebys!  Friday morning early starts chemo and we were up very early ready to check in at Mayo at 8 AM!

 

March 2 we me with PA Anne who again answered many questions now that we had received the word about ERBB2 found out yes, she has treated this but it all depends on the person as does how chemo affects one.. Dr Mansfield has prescribed a combo of chemo therapy and immune therapy for Chuck.  Chemo started at 11:30 and we entered the chemo side of Mayo Clinic.  Folks here are so very nice and helpful.  We were to be here 4 hours and yes, treated with a three-way cocktail!  Chemo Cocktail! First IV for 30 minutes pembrolizumab (Ketruda) Second IV after 30 minute break pemetrexed (Alimta) Third IV after 30 minute break is Carboplatin for 30 minutes.   DONE~!  We head to the truck and Chuck is feeling well enough to drive home!  Stopping only at Arbys for supper we arrived home by 9:30.  We took time on the way home to read and discuss Hezekiah’s story:

 

2 Kings 18-20 Hezekiah becomes king and is a good king following in David’s ways.  He put his whole trust in the God of Israel.  There was no king like him either before or after and he held fast to God.  He never loosened his grip and obeyed to the letter all God commanded!    Bad things happened because Israel would not listen to God.  Hezekiah tells the king of Assyria Israel was wrong and would pay them back   Hezekiah made bad choices by taking silver from God’s temple and then Hezekiah tears his robe and goes into the temple. Hezekiah prayed to God.  Maker of Heaven and Earth!  Open your ears and listen and open your eyes and hear, SAVE US~!  You are God…. Thant night the angel of God came and massacred 185,000 Assyrians!  Next Hezekiah gets sick and Isaiah comes to tell him, “Put your affairs in order for you are about to die!”  Hezekiah prays to God,  “Remember God who I am and what I have done.  I’ve lived honest before you and my heart has been true and steady.  I’ve lived to please You.”  Hezekiah wept and Isaiah then heard from God “Go back and tell Hezekiah I have listened and seen your tears.  I am going to heal you!  In 3 days you will walk on your own legs into the Temple of God.  I have added 15 years to your life!”  Next they boiled a fig plaster and applied it to eh king and he was on his way to recovery.  However he asked how to know this is of God or not just the fig plaster?…. He asked for a sign and then Isaiah asked do you want God to advance the shadow on the stairs 10 degrees or have it go back 10 degrees?  Hezekiah thought it too easy to go forward so asked for it to go back and the shadow went back.. The story goes on..

 

Saturday March 3 we thanked Jerry for his help and had him and Sioux over for dinner and Sunday we went to church again with Chuck feeling great!  Monday March 5th  …. Jinelle gave birth to her second son.. our 10th grandchild Rory Randall Siergiej!  NEW LIFE~! 

We celebrate with Jinelle and Mike!  However Chuck is not feeling as well and fever starts climbing…. By night time to 99.9 and we pray it goes down…. Our doctor gave strict instructions if fever goes to 100.5 you must go to the emergency room!  Thanking God it went down.  Chuck is now starting to sleep for got some perscription sleeping aids and finally more sleep!~

 

Tuesday was another day Chuck just did not feel well and had low grade fever with it again rising at night.  He is now taking 2-3 naps per day as well as sleeping 7 hours at night!  Thankfully temp went down again later evening.  Pam went to the community dinner again and was greeted by many folks from 3 Lakes Free Church with hugs of encouragement and wanting her to know they are praying!  Coming home that night Chuck was not happy with the hugs!  We must beware of infection and germs….  He slept well again!  Wednesday at Needs Ministry Pam is much more careful and when guests came in coughing she left and went home!  Chuck seems better and continues to take naps and sleep better.  Thursday and Friday both find him feeling stronger and no temp! 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Chuck’s Story

Site created on March 8, 2018

Thank you for taking time to understand more what is happening in Chuck's life! This cancer has been a huge shock and reminder that no one knows what may happen tomorrow! Our hopes in sharing is to keep clear communication every step along this adventure. We are so thankful for you, our family and friends! We also want to pray for you in your lives, so please share how we can give back to you in this way, Chuck and Pam

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