John died from pulmonary fibrous on May 14th 2022 just 3 months shy of three years since diagnosis. I stopped journaling early in our journey as John was not happy with posting information. As I look back in the postings I regret that decision. It might have helped me with the great brief I am experiencing now.
I have aged so much in these 3 years I barely recognize myself in the mirror. A stranger with hollow eyes stares back at me.
It has been 4 months since his death and my personal health is not good. I have had 2 serious falls and COVID. Dixie has had her Third litter of puppies. I have spent money unwisely. I have headaches that make me dizzy. I feel I have lost my faith.
