January 17, 2020

Dear Friends of Bob,

This journal will keep you posted on Bob’s recovery from his health challenges.

Feel free to share this with those who will stand in agreement for his complete restoration in body, soul and spirit.

This first entry is a combination of Bob sharing his health journey over the last few years and how it has affected  every aspect of his life. It has been a very hard journey to say the least, and he is very honest here about his experience.

Bob’s sharing is then followed by more direct information about his health, his recovery plan, and the restoration and reviving of his Deeper Waters ministry.

From Bob:

A bit of where I am at now ... In my heart...It’s been most difficult to share these things because I didn’t want to make excuses for my negative reactions or flakiness. But fortunately I’ve begun to understand more and so this letter is a way of explanation. My intention moving forward is to love life and totally simplify so I can do better and feel at peace with any limitations I may experience.

I was in denial of my physical & mental/emotional health for a long time. I honestly didn’t understand how it affected me. I simply didn’t maintain my relationships as I should have because of this.

This year I totally believe for Jesus’ appearing in the Nations. I believe for His view of all of creation and ourselves to be open to us to live and proclaim... His original design. I believe that I am simply to adore Him as I have this opportunity to rest more and be wise with what my body and mind are telling me. The reactionary spirit that says, “everyone is against me”, is mostly gone... And the, “I don't care” spirit I have left far behind. My love for His heart and His ways is so alive!!!

But I have to be careful…one result from my brain injury from my car accident in Cuba which the scans showed is that the way my brain operates in visionary function can spin hard to the negative and then I can hurt people with my words. The Lord is helping me and he has given me a great group of friends here to help me, too.

I fully know the truth that Jesus is near me. There is a wonderful sovereign plan for our lives. And I believe for God’s best for my life. And even though it’s been very difficult this last season it had beauty in it, along with real challenges (and needed change) to my health and mostly my soul!! I have so much to be grateful for.

I’ve seen people that seem shipwrecked because of giving in to the pain and giving up trusting Jesus. I’ve begun to acknowledge the pain and take it to Jesus myself. I realized also that my emotions can hurt my heart and my brain and I acknowledge that too, and I commit to replace those negative emotions with a hope-filled attitude. All I ever wanted is Him... His way. He chose me to be an overcomer and I trust Him. Revelation 12:11

I choose to live for Jesus with greater desire. Jesus wants to encourage me with the fact, the reality, that He sees Himself in me. I choose to say “yes” today. I do feel pain every day but I rise up in Him every day. I feel empowered every day. I feel trust every day.... there’s a reach in my heart for the love and beauty of God to fill my soul and change my life.

I’m asking God every day for His appearing throughout the day – I so love and need it... (What a great adventure!!!). I am giving myself to a marveling and wonder-filled heart for Him to make Himself known. My focus is to be childlike and believe all things are possible, that mountains can move by faith, that I can see and hear and feel Him. I cannot allow the pain of yesterday to diminish my confidence in the good for today.

I just wanted to give you a quick update on the status of my most important reality - My heart in Him. I’ve been out of touch to rest and recoup for too long – but it has never been personal toward anyone.

Thank you so much for your love and prayers, it means so much to me.

Love,
Bob

From Bill Greenman:

Hello Everyone,

There’s a great crew of friends here in KC who are collectively coming together to help Bob. We realize he has been physically and mentally affected by the multiple traumas of his divorce, his brain injury from the car accident, his open heart surgery, and several other issues. His knee replacement surgery last October alone will take about 6 months to fully recover from. That recovery is a big cause of fatigue, and he’s fighting that battle daily – but winning!

Bob also had a recent procedure on his neck to reduce the pain of compressed vertebrae. Add to that the time consuming reality of selling multiple businesses over the last year and the stress levels go through the roof. However, Bob is making great strides on his way to full recovery from these past few years of critical physical and emotional hardships.

It’s hard for any of us to know or understand the seriousness of what Bob was dealing for the last several years. If someone says “cancer” everyone knows how deeply traumatic that is. But if you say "brain trauma" or "nerve damage" or "intense inflammation", all of which continues to create great pain but can’t be seen, its hard for people to know how to see how serious it really is. Bob could appear almost normal one day and the next be totally out of it in pain and fatigue.

The results of the brain injury caused the loss of his sense of priorities, and causes him to forget meetings and other items of order. This also makes him more impulsive and intense with his reactions, which of course can damage relationships. On top of that he often won’t even remember that he did so. Now he’s learning the physical clues that signal such things are about to occur, one of which is his brain will actually hurt.

Obviously Bob needs to get his body and mind completely well and he’s committed to focusing 2020 on that goal. On Bob’s part he’s working to reduce his stress, rest often, clear his body of toxins, and make other life-giving choices at all levels.

Another part of his recovery plan requires that he not be on the road until we know it won’t send him into a tailspin. At the moment we’re looking to March as his first mile marker.  We’ll keep you posted as to when Bob may be able to travel.

In the midst of Bob’s recovery process God has been very gracious to help us begin to gather a new team of volunteers and professionals to assist him in rebuilding Deeper Waters and his reduced business responsibilities.

We are also focused on the Yellow House ministry with its properties, curriculums, and products to help believers grow in their personal capacity for hope in the Lord Jesus. This will entail publications, new websites, videos, blogs, live events, social media, and more. The team is very excited about rolling out all of these projects over the coming months.

Please come back to this site for further updates on Bob’s health and ministry recovery.

And please continue to pray for both of those items too!  J

I know the Lord has great things in store for us all this coming year!

Thank you again for your love and kindness to Bob.

Many blessings to you all,

Bill Greenman