I really don't know how to start this post... I've been a wreck the past few weeks- crying non stop because I knew you were going to leave this world and go meet our God.  Selfishly, I couldn't handle that thought.  I couldn't wrap my mind around the fact that you wouldn't be here to answer my every question.

On Friday, April 16th at 12:30 pm, I said my final goodbye to my friend, cancer warrior, and mentor.  And on Saturday, April 17th, Katherine left this world to be cancer free and healed in heaven.  She was surrounded by her family who loved her fiercely. Craig loved his Katherine so much that as a bystander you could feel his love towards her.  It's one of those moments that people talk about in movies or a producers tries to recreate in a movie.  Craig's love for Katherine was so passionate and selfless. To be a caregiver and / or spouse of someone battling cancer is an unimaginable job.  Katherine would often tell me to get Poteat and Craig together so they could bond over our cancer journeys. Craig has worn some many hats these past 4 years, and he's done such a great job being the rock for his family.  

Today, Katherine, I informed our support group that you went to heaven.  It was one of hardest post that I've ever written, but I felt it necessary.  You were always advocating and learning new information on cancer.  You always educated me and pointed me in the right direction.  You are greatly missed in our group, but we all rejoice that you are pain free and flying high. 

I have this overwhelming sense of guilt of why you and not me.. why did I survive and not you.  I've been struggling with this thought.  You lived your days to the fullest.  No depression, no sadness, no self pity.  You have inspired me to live my days to the fullest, to live in the moment and enjoy every second with family / friends.  I was actually interviewed two days after your passing for a local magazine, and I spoke about you and your strength. I was holding back tears but my mission is to continue to spread awareness for us and our cancers.  To talk about you, brings me strength.  I will always talk about you and always share your story. 

Tonight, we celebrate you with all your friends in Cleveland, and tomorrow we will lay you peacefully to rest.  Kitty, your funeral, will be a very hard moment in my life.  However, with this hardship brings me a renewed sense of thankfulness for life.  You keep giving me moments of gratitude, and I'm thankful for this opportunity to share your story.  I will do all that I can to advocate for us young cancer patients.