Thank you everyone 🙏... I'm so miserable I'm hesitant to even try and describe it for you. Going to be a long week. 

I can't talk or swallow, I always feel like I'm choking, I can't breathe. I have intense, non-stop pain. Coughing blood and mucus out of my throat. 

 Having full tracheotomy next week, it's so bad I'm actually looking forward to that. It'll be an improvement. 

I am getting the best possible care and ability to treat this. So, I know I am very blessed in that area... between that and the love from family and friends I know I can get through this. I'm really focused on trying to control my thoughts, remaining optimistic about the future and keeping my piece of mind.