I sought the Lord.. and He heard.. and He answered! 

I had my scan about a week ago and was desperately praying that my cancer was stable enough that I could just be for a few months. This was the scan that would dictate when I need HIPEC (the massive surgery I have had twice and despise!). I met with the surgeon and he said my cancer looks stable and we can continue the course of the chemo regimen I am currently on and table HIPEC for a bit. We will reconvene in 6 months, with scans every 3 to be sure nothing changes in the meantime. I am so thrilled to be able to just live life and feel “normal” for hopefully 6 months without a HIPEC date looming over my head. 
Throughout this period of my life, I am learning that God does listen and answer my prayers- even if it is not in my desired timeline or exactly what I prayed for. I desperately prayed that I wouldn’t get sick through treatments and after several horrible experiences, I have finally found a regimen where I do not get sick. I desperately prayed I wouldn’t loose my hair. I have not gone completely bald, and though I am majorly thinning out and considering getting a wig, it has been very gradual that I have had time to come to peace with it. I prayed for miraculous healing and good news on this recent scan. Though the cancer is still there, I received great news that I am stable. I am so thankful for these moments of answered prayer because they give me hope and faith to continue on and to keep praying big prayers. I will continue to pray to be miraculously healed. It may not be the timeline in which I wish for it to be, but I do have faith it will happen someday. Thank you for your continued love, prayers and support as I continue down this road. I am so grateful you take the time to read these entries, pray for me, and ask me how I’m doing.