Hey Hello. I have tons of excuses but a goal and an illusion. The illusion is since I cant sleep properly I drink to sleep. Not only do I know the science were you dont sleep 'properly' when drunk... but can also testify I sleep better when relying only on my Meds, ALWAYS tailored for me so as to be non-abusable. U know like Benzo and stuff loke that. The goal, at one point or other was, is and has been: obliteration. I was good at providing sound advice and strategies for others but never worked any plan on and for me. Obliteration like Kurt C. wrote about in his made-public Journals. Oh the excuse(s)? Good Agave-based Booze is Cheap around here and... I got a by-choice Baby and a kind of ex whom makes me not-happy in general terms Whenever I get her powdered milk, oatmeal, rice, sugar or whatever other for the baby bottle theres ALWAYS the proverbial dime left over for the booze. So here I procure to keep close this stereotype of "ungrateful lady" classical in Mexican, Colombian or Dominican Music drinking excuse. Dont look back in anger, they said them Gallagher boys from Oasis but I know I look for this trap and it feels like I add fire-water and tar to make my quicksand trap far more challenging than the regular trap at golf courses. my Drugs of Choice, that I know are 'suave', NOT hard at all... well one is off the market and the other has become a rarity, a plant apparently in extinction and Very Expensive! Thanks for letting me write and forreading. G'night!