Experiencing great suffering as you are, puts you in the company of saints. Only by experiencing certain things can one achieve true empathy for what others before, during and after are going through. In honor of your suffering, and in keeping with the innocent people around the planet now starving and wounded without access to food or medical care, I am now doing a 48 hour fast so that I may in some small measure of no real consequence, experience personally some iota of deprivaiton and yearning for being in a state of "normal" that we all would like to retain in our lives. You will prevail.
Honestly, there are no words to why you are going through this. We continue to pray for you, and we are here for you. We are all part of your community and know what a treasure you and your family are to us all. Much love to you.❤️❤️❤️