Maxley is up to 3 1/2 pounds! He had a big jump so he might have a drop in weight tomorrow but for now we celebrate!

Otherwise today was more bottling and sleeping! He took 6ml (.2 oz) during one feeding today which is great! Big steps. He only gets .74 oz every 2 hours so the fact that he is drinking almost a third of that in about 20 minutes is great!

We talked to the doctor about timing and when we can expect to be busting out and she thinks at least another month. It’s hard to imagine being here another month because I’ve been here almost 6 weeks already. I’m glad he is getting the best care possible and in the long run 2 months here isn’t a ton but I only have 12 weeks of maternity and it isn’t paid so I will have to go back to work pretty quick after getting home. I am looking forward to going back to work since I love my job and I love my coworkers more. I think the routine will be good for me.

I honestly just can’t believe I’m living in the place that Scott died. I relive that day so often. Not that I think I won’t when I go home but it’s so horrible to be here in the place that changed everything for me.

The funeral service is next Saturday and we are just finalizing plans for that. I’m looking forward to celebrating his life and trying to begin my new normal.