So at my therapists request, along with family members (Mo)...I am starting a portal that gives a birds eye view inside of my head (this could be a short flight😀). I'm not really sure how to do this as I have difficulty writing a journal which is only seen by me. This is designed to provide information to my family and friends (if they so desire to know) in real time. It also provides an outlet for me to process all of this overwhelming information. Hi, my name is Bob and I have Stage 3 colorectal cancer. When I got very ill and ended up in the emergency room, I hadn't heard the big C word, it was only a strange mass that didn't look or "behave" like cancer. So is cancer like the bad boy in class that has gone emo and decided to wear trench coats in summertime? It was the same information all the way up to the 5th day of my 12 days in the hospital that in fact I had cancer. As the days went by as I was comped yet another 7 nights stay at the beautiful St. Josephs PeaceHealth Hospital, the news sunk in slowly. I was covered by some of the most unbelievable people who gave up their time to come see me, decorate my room for my birthday (yes I was not only in the hospital on my 50th, but I had exploratory surgery that ended up giving me an infection that awarded me another 4 glorious nights in my suite). I will never forget how these people were the hands and feet of the One who created me. I have never known such unconditional love in my life, and it was that support that has kept me going. I will never be able to repay or even express how grateful I am.