Since 1998, I have battled various symptoms, disorders, along with challenges in pregnancies and longer than expected surgerical recoveries. Those around me slowly became uncertain how to help, comfort or support me and I certainly do not blame them. My life was starting to be like a three-ring circus never knowing what was next, how I would feel. In 2014 the spontaneous perforations that nearly took my life remained and still remain a mystery to the ER, surgeons, my providers and even my specialist at Mayo. After August 2016 when I attended a pain rehab clinic at Mayo, my life improved significantly in many ways as I learned to manage pain, learned to not catastrophize about symptoms and learned what support I needed in myself and my work and personal life to live a better life. I am more active than I thought possible and still working. I appreciate your support, prayers and words of hope and encouragement as I journey through what lays ahead for myself and children. This is my personal journey of Primary Sjorgren's (absence of a rheumatic disorder).