At the Beat Breast Cancer mud volleyball tournament

Melissa Green Team Melissa Green

First post: Oct 29, 2016 Latest post: Jul 25, 2017
This chapter of my life story started on Monday, October 17th.  After feeling a weird "knot" in my right breast on Sunday night I thought that I'd better go to the Dr. on Monday to get it checked out.   I made a simple appointment with my family practice Dr. that afternoon.  I thought nothing of it and was sure they would tell me it was a cyst, clogged duct, whatever. After meeting with the P.A., he thought too that it was very likely a cyst (given the fact of how quickly it came about {at least in my eyes} and the size of it).   He still referred me on to get a full mammogram and ultrasound...just to be sure.  

Needless to say, I headed over to Advanced Medical Imaging right away to have it all looked at...still thinking nothing of it.  I hadn't even called my family because I was just sure it was no big deal.   They did the mammogram {ouch!} on both sides and, of course, had to take several extra pictures on the right.  Then, because of my age, they did an ultrasound.   They informed me that the radiologist would read the results and then he may or may not come in to talk to me.  Either way, they would let me know today what they are seeing. This is when my mind started to worry and I remember feeling very uneasy.  I waited for about 20 minutes and then the radiologist came in...I think my stomach dropped to the floor.  He informed me right away that what he was seeing on the pictures and the ultrasound was "very concerning and could possibly be cancer."  I think I lost it...I sobbed, asked a few questions, and within minutes I was scheduling a biopsy for the next day.

On Tuesday afternoon I had the biopsy.  All in all it was pretty uneventful.  The nurses and Dr. were so kind and gentle.  They were caring and talked with me the whole way through.   I knew I wouldn't find out anything at this appointment so now the waiting game began.  This was the most excruciating and  stressful  wait ever.  I had so many people praying for me, hugging me, and sending kind words and thoughts, but somehow it is still so lonely and scary.  The Dr. said I would have the results back by Thursday...2 very long days.

Late Thursday afternoon I received the phone call from my nurse.   It was the words I was dreading to hear.  The words that I thought I had prepared myself for {but now I know... there is no preparing for this!}.  It was definitely cancer.  She gave it a very long name {like six "technical" words}.  I had to ask, I needed to hear the words..."just tell me, that means cancer, right?".  She said "yes, I'm so sorry."  Again, I sobbed, asked a few questions, and tried to wrap my brain around it all.  I called my husband, cried and cried, and told him how scared I am.  He kept his positive attitude {as he has had this entire time} and said "It's ok, we will get through this, it's only a bump in the road" along with many other words of encouragement and reminders of my strength and God's plan.  

Today, a week later, I know that I still have not fully processed and coped with the news.  There are still many questions/concerns running through my head.  But, I have SO many prayer warriors out there, so many amazing and wonderful friends, a support system like none other, and a truly AWESOME family that I'm holding tight to right now.   I started this page with the hopes of keeping my loved ones, all of you, up to date with my journey.  I will do my best to update with any information, plans, news, etc.  I plan to share the GOOD and the bad.   I'm sure there will be some of both, but hopefully more of the first:)

I have been extremely overwhelmed by the outpouring of love and support I have received in this first week...the one week that has felt like an eternity to me.  I feel like I've cried a million tears.  But, I can't even begin to thank everyone for the kind words, reminders of my strength and God's plan for me, gifts, donations, encouragement, hugs...the list goes on and on.  And thank you most for the hundreds of prayers that have been said for me.  GOD IS GOOD and He has a plan for me!  Please know that I am beyond blessed by the support of all of you!  

As I prepare for the next step, a few things I ask:
1.  Please pray for my strength and healing through this journey.  And keep reminding me that I'm STRONG.  There will be days when I forget this.  
2.  Please pray for Ja'Thi, Jayla, and Jaiden as they will have to endure this all with me.  Pray that I can continue to be a good wife and mother.   Pray for my parents, my sister and family, and JaThi's parents and family.  These  amazing people will be with us every step of the way. 
3.  Please feel free to ask questions and/or contact me.  I need all the encouragement I can get!  And don't feel bad if you don't know what to say.  There are a lot of times that I don't know what to say either.  
4.  Please do not be offended if I don't respond right away.  Again, I LOVE getting messages from everyone.  I read them, laugh, cry, and appreciate every kind word.  I promise I am so appreciative and I will do my very best to respond to everyone!
5.  Hug your loved ones.  An experience like this is so eye opening.  Don't let a day go by without hugging, kissing, and embracing your loved ones.  

"For I know the plans I have for you", declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and future."  Jeremiah 29:11

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