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Well here we go. The beginning of any journey begins with the first step and although I have already begun, I will consider this my first step. I have cancer. I have it in my brain, liver, and lungs all originating from my lungs. It was caught randomly when I had a physical with no symptoms to make me look. I spent the first few days trying to process it and trying to answer the question, why me? Well there is no answer. It sucks but it is my life now. It is a part of my life I have to deal with, but it sure as hell does not, nor will not define my life. I am strong, #Scottstrong to say the least and I will prevail and become an inspiration to those who will unfortunately become members of this club.
In these last few weeks I have learned much about myself, my friends and my family in a many people probably never will. My family is amazing and there are no limits to the love and support they have given me. They never leave my side and will do anything to ensure that the only outcome is that I am free from this disease. My children are awesome and completely go on with their lives just like I want them to do. Its what they deserve and what I expect and because I'm coming back stronger than before, they need not worry. Their mother Amy is right there as well when they need her and she has been amazing throughout this process. She allows me not to worry about anything except getting better.
My friends I am so humbled by you. You guys lift me up daily with messages and stories and hearing from those I haven't heard from in years is the best medicine I can receive. Your offers to help with anything at anytime means the world to me and my words will never do justice to properly being able to thank you. But thank you for the unconditional love, understanding, and support. Thank you for giving me space to process and to grieve and for going to others to find updates instead of always coming to me. You are there when I need you and there when I don't even know that I need you and for that I wouldn't change a thing and am eternally grateful. What has meant the most to me is when you tell me that this has made you look at yourself and the friends surrounding you and what they truly mean to you and others and how the friendships are deeper and appreciation for each other grows. That's truly awesome. I have the best care giver ever by my side as well and Jennifer you have truly made this whole process easy for me because you hear reality and translate it to me and organize my meds and everything else in my life so that I can just concentrate on getting better and staying healthy. You let me cry when I need to and are always there after to pick me back up afterwards. You show me unconditional love and I feel every moment and this journey would not be the same without you. I love you and will always hold this close to my heart.
I think of everything I have received, the ability to see myself, how I have lived my life. I never did things for recognition or reward, but because it was me and it felt right. The stories shared and the inspiration that apparently I gave to many has blown me away. I promise it makes me want to come back stronger and make more of a mark and impact on those around me and especially our family, family company, and my city. Lookout because I have a new mission and its all about elevating all. I will fight hard to get back to full potential as quickly as I can and continue to make my mark on this world. I truly believe I have not even begun. Hey cancer, GO TO HELL you chose the wrong person this time. I love you all