Phoebe DeKrey

Phoebe's Cancer Journal

The week before Easter I had some severe stomach pains...I chalked it up to my acid reflux and eating the wrong things.  That time it lasted about 4 days and I think the Lord knew I needed to feel well for Tom, to be strong for him while Verla was failing and her going to see Jesus and then the funeral for her.  The day after her funeral I started having the severe pains again.  This time I was so miserable I went to see my Dr.  At first he thought it was my acid reflux also so I thought....out with my gallbladder and on I go with my summer plans!!!  But nope.  With all that pain Dr decided to do a CT Scan.  He called me & Tom back into the clinic that afternoon...I knew it was not good when he wanted to talk to both of us.  May 8th...a day I will forever remember the words...tumors on my liver!  It had to be wrong....I was so sure I was just going to have my gallbladder out and done!  So the next step was a biopsy on Wednesday the 13th.  5-7 days till we would know the results and it felt like forever!  Dr called this morning and it's cancer and they have no idea where it originated yet.  Again not the words I wanted to hear.  I was praying for the word "benign".  Again I didnt' get the word I wanted to hear.  Maybe the Lord is telling me I need to "Be Still" and listen to him more.  This week is going to be a week of Dr appointments, more scans, a port for chemo and more.  All that is foreign to me & Tom as neither one of us has ever really had a bad illness.  We are trying to wrap our heads around all this and keep our faith strong.  Sometimes that is really hard.  Right now we ask for all the prayers you can say for us.  This has been so hard for me to tell all of you but harder yet was telling my kids & my Mom!  I am still paying for a full recovery....if that is the Lord's will.  So, this energizer bunny that cleans, cooks, jet skis, loves on all the little kiddos and the rest of my favorite summer things seems a little slow this summer you will know why!  Praying for strength & courage!!  Love you all!  Phoebe