A week or so before Christmas, I can’t describe it any better than to say I kind of felt a little “off”. Both Malinda and I noticed clumsiness, forgetfulness, some confusion and I felt generally fatigued a lot. Christmas night we had family over for supper and a couple family members even noticed and commented. But when Kaylyn finally asked “Mom, has he hit his head recently?” I think simultaneously we both thought, YES, I had. During harvest my garage door opener broke. We were heading out to combine so I pulled on the trip rope to lower the door manually and it broke so I fell to the floor and hit my head on the floor of the garage. I had a headache but went to the field and thought nothing more of it. Malinda didn’t sleep well that night and her gut feeling made me go to the walk-in clinic on December 26. The clinic took several blood tests to rule out other things but also took a CT scan of my head. I’ll always remember what the internal medicine doctor said, “Good news is I don’t see any swelling or any bleeders. Bad news is, I don’t see any swelling or any bleeders”. Instead there is a large mass in my head. I was hospitalized and even that night had an MRI which when the neurosurgeon saw the next morning confirmed it as probably Stage IV Glioblastoma. I had another CT scan too to make sure it hadn’t started somewhere else first. That test was negative, it all started there in the brain which I am not sure if that would have been better news or not. This type of cancer is not curable. Treatment options will extend and enhance quality of life. But at this point, I’m on God’s time and not my own. The doctor feels it’s been growing for a couple of months but has absolutely nothing to do with what I went through all summer from the cat bite on June 26.
I’d like to share a couple thoughts with you that I shared with my home church family on Sunday. If anyone hasn’t seen the movie “Facing the Giants”, I would highly recommend it! I won’t talk much about it but a football coach either comes to a struggling football team with losing records recently or if he’s the coach, decides to take the coaching in a new direction. The title refers to a team they need to meet in the championship but on a grander scale deals with the bigger things, the giants in all our lives. One of the first team meetings with the team he announced that win or lose, they were going to give the glory to God. Sometime in the movie, or if from another movie, I don’t remember for sure, someone prays for God to show up and show off! The Bible says that God doesn’t cause bad things to happen to people but allows it to happen, most times for his purpose. I still believe God has a plan for me. If he wants to show up and show off and give me 20-30 more years, fantastic! If not, I pray that he’ll use me in some way to be a blessing to others or help them on their faith walk. I closed at church thanking them for being my support in the past, mentors in my faith walk that I could even be here talking like this in front of them in this situation. I would like to thank all of you out there too that have influenced my faith walk so far.
Tomorrow, Wednesday, January 2 our family will meet with the surgeon to answer any questions we may have and discuss surgery. Surgery is scheduled for Thursday, January 3, time yet to be determined. Kaylyn, Miranda and Malinda will keep you updated via CaringBridge. I’m trying to do my best to be upbeat, walk with the knowledge of Jesus being there ready to sweep me up because of his selfless sacrificial gift for my salvation. Gods Blessings to all of you. Please continue to keep us in your prayers!