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Mar 30, 2018 Latest post:
Dec 7, 2018
Noelle Luna: I’ve been married to John for nine years coming up in August and together we have four beautiful children, Jubilee (6), Lois (4), John Luke (4) and Kaylee (16.5 months). I’m also a voice and piano teacher, and have been homeschooling Jubilee for the past year. On March 26, 2018 I was diagnosed with invasive ductal carcinoma that had also been found in my axillary lymph nodes as well as ductal carcinoma in situ. The days that followed were extremely challenging and difficult. In the midst of our grief, God rescued us from the fear and overwhelming nature of such a diagnosis, and we began to find much comfort, especially from the support we received from so many family members and friends. I ran to the Lord and He began to assure me that He was in charge of this difficult time, and amazingly, I found I could still function. God was still on His throne and held me as I wept for the uncertainty of the days ahead.
Since the diagnosis, I have done much research about cancer, particularly natural and holistic ideas of treating and preventing the spread of cancer. I was amazed to find how much is out there in God’s creation, and by changing a lot of my lifestyle and diet choices, I could help slow down or even begin to heal from the cancer that came from my own body. I’m not completely against western medicine, although I understand it’s easy to come to that conclusion based on what protocols I have been doing. At the same time, I want to understand what is at the root of this cancer and I’m looking to see what I can do to treat it, not just physically, but emotionally and spiritually as well. We want to do all that we can in order to make sure I don’t only beat cancer, but make my body healthier and stronger with lifelong, healthy habits in order for me to continue to be a wife to my husband, mother to my children and serve God at our church.
I also understand that each person has their own journey and liberty to choose the treatment plan that fits them best. I write this in my introduction to serve as a reminder that I am not judging anyone for choosing a different path for healing cancer. My path may look different, but I am rooting for anyone who is dealing with such a difficult diagnosis.
I hope that this blog will serve as an encouragement with what God is doing in my own life and as a resource for those who are interested in holistic and natural treatments look like. It’s mostly intended to keep you all in the loop of what’s going on with us, as well as share needs as they come up. I hope that it will glorify God more than anything and give you a little window into our world. May God receive much glory, honor and praise that He deserves as He helps us through this fiery trial!
John Luna: Well, here we are. Everyone knows me for not being very loquacious and if I am, it means that something very sarcastic will probably be leaving my mouth and gracing your ears. A lot of life to me has been one big running joke and is my coping mechanism when faced with the challenges of life. Unfortunately, this challenge is one where I'm not in the driver's seat. It is not something that I can control; I am merely a passenger along for the ride.
On Monday, March 26th we found out that Noelle has cancer, the "big C". Every bout with it has been described as having survived it, never surmount it, never conquering it and for good reason. Cancer has never been a positive diagnosis. It's something you wouldn't wish on your worst enemy (unless you're a psychopath, then at that point I'd say you have other things to deal with). Obviously, the fear of mortality and finality comes looming at you at this point and what hurts, even more, is that I can't fix this. As someone who's used to working with 1's and 0's and is used to building and fixing things for a living, the futility not being able to do anything drives me to distraction.
But there is hope. Hope that I have in a living God and kind Father (Matt. 7). I know that God is using this to bring us closer to Him as well as bring him glory (James 1). My hope is that the worst that could happen is that Noelle will be with her True Father and will be free of the pain that is in this world.
But don't get me wrong! I'm not going Kavorkian on you. I'm hoping that she still has more years left on earth, I'm just acknowledging the fact that Noelle fate is outside of my control and in the hands of someone who will do a wayyyyyy better job than I will. I'm just here for backup. Our hope is that Noelle will spend at least some more time with her children to see them grow up. That they can create memories with her that will help them to realize the woman that I see: A woman who loves God and shows it as naturally as walking. And let's face, my laundry isn't going to fold itself, though this human may have to learn that stupid pet trick after all.