Welcome to our CaringBridge website. We are using it to keep family and friends updated in one place. We appreciate your support and words of hope and encouragement. Thank you for visiting. Mason is an amazing young man! He is a young man that has had a long life spent in the hospital and struggling to enjoy life as a child should be able to. On Oct 8th, Mason was admitted to Children's hospital for what they thought was a viral brain inflammation (encepholopathy). The treatment made the symptoms, which were psychiatric, extremely worse. He went through the worst thing we've ever seen. The nurses and Dr's were tearing up. They concluded that all of his brain viruses were truly not that, but true psychiatric problems. Mason tried to kill himself...multiple times. It was the scariest thing we've ever dealt with. Mason spent 6 days at Children's until they placed him in daytime hospitalization at Prairie Care in Chaska. I spent 5 hours a day driving him to and from, while trying to be a mom to Porter, keep home life continuing etc. I feel like it is nearly impossible. I have time to breathe, and I feel like nothing more. Mason was getting much much better. He was at Prairie Care in Chaska from October 18 until November 7th. He missed his own birthday :( This past weekend he tried to kill himself several times. Don't read further if you have a weak stomach. He choked himself, strangled himself, held his breath, tried jumping off the deck, tried getting knives, beat himself till he was bleeding and black and blue, suffocating himself, choking on food, among many others. It is the worst pain to see your son feel so terrible that he wants to die. He told us over and over again that if we loved him, we'd let him die. We had sheriffs and ambulance here Sunday to help sedate and restrain him. Once sedated, we kept him 1-1 until we got him admitted inpatient at Prairie Care in Brooklyn Park. There was no where to take him in all of MN all weekend. There is a huge lack of metal health care in MN. He's been poked, prodded, stabbed with sedation, restrained for hours with belts and a heart rate of 190 for three or more hours. He's been through HELL. We've all been through HELL. The Dr's know now that it is not a brain virus, but do still not know what is causing this. We've heard over 7 diagnosis in 7 years. He's had dozens of hospitalizations. We have came close to losing the baby that we prayed and begged for years to get. Now we pray that the doctors that have him can help him and find and keep him alive. He (we) have a long journey ahead. He will be in a program of some sort for the next 3 months. First inpatient (when our baby stays all alone without his mama and dad :( We are all terrified), partial hospitalization 6-8 weeks, and then finally a 3 hour program( 6 weeks) . Porter is hurting, as he knows what is happening. He is so scared and confused. Mason is very verbal. I worry about Porter's health. Our family is feeling near depleted. We are praying for answers and recovery, physical and emotional health and safety for all of us. God never gives us more than we can handle, and God must think the J4 are pretty strong. I pray that we are, and that we keep Mason alive and safe. We are praying for strength and hope. Please pray for us. Thank you for all of your support.