The week before Thanksgiving I received a phone call from Kaiser telling me that the biopsy they had done revealed that I had cancer. It was the doctor "on call" that day, not anyone I had every met. She said she was sorry to have to deliver this news and that I would be seeing an gynecologic oncologist on Tuesday. It was a Friday afternoon. I cannot even describe how I felt the three days knowing I had cancer, but not knowing how serious or what my treatment would involve.
I had no information, so I didn't tell anyone.
My feelings ranged from "this is nothing" to imagining that I may not be around in five years. The internet is a mixed blessing. Lots of information, but even if you have a blister, it is easy to come to the conclusion that you will die.
The good news is that it is not as serious as cervical cancer. Please do not ask for details. I am not comfortable discussing it. Let's just say it is a "feminine kind of cancer."
You know that I am a very private person and that usually I do not share much about myself. But, I cannot face this without the support of family and friends. Please do not say, "I'm sorry you are sick". Please do say, "So what can we do together to distract you and make you laugh?" I am scheduled for surgery on December 20 so I have a few weeks to be busy.
Bring healing energy and humor to help me face this new health challenge. Cancer is a scary concept, but it is just one more battle to win. I am asking for distraction, not sympathy. Make me laugh, keep me busy, share your joy. Understand that I cannot participate in many activities I did before. With a strong community around me I will live well and live strong.
Instead of responding to emails, please contact me through this Caring Bridge site with your wishes, questions,etc. I will post updates on this site so everyone will be informed. By using Caring Bridge I can provide information for everyone just once, have all your wishes together in one place, and I can choose when I want to deal with the issue, instead of reminders of my cancer constantly "in my face" along with emails telling me of Macys sales, bills that are due, and updates on committees and clubs.
I know that I am not alone in this battle. Thank you for your love and support.....and humor.