Tara Poláček Let’s Kick Cancer’s Ass

First post: Oct 7, 2021 Latest post: Oct 25, 2021
How ironic that on the eve of breast cancer awareness month (Thursday September 30th) I got a phone call that has forever changed my life, and now I am especially “aware” this year.

It has taken me since then to wrap my head around the fact that I was diagnosed with breast cancer. This entire situation has been one hell of an emotional roller coaster to say the least.

I decided to share my journey so I can keep friends and family updated. One positive thing that I have taken out of this so far is I had never realized the level of support and wonderful people that I have surrounding me until now, it is mind blowing and I could not be more blessed. Angels do exist. While I appreciate all the calls and texts- it is a lot to keep up with updating everyone even for as much as I like to talk 🤣 so I thought this is a good means of communication.

I could not be in a better situation while going through this battle that is just starting. I’m in a career that I absolutely love with the most supportive bosses I could ever even imagine. Really, they are wonderful, and yes Alina, I will get a custom- Bachata bodysuit specific for this time even louder than my other one, if that’s possible!
I was in such a good spot mentally and the happiest I’ve ever been in my life before this diagnosis and I am trying to continue channeling that energy. It makes me think, why me? why now? There’s never a good time to battle cancer but if I had to choose a time I’m probably in the best case scenario and I am grateful for that. As I say all the time, the sweet is never as sweet without the bitter… I continue to see life like this from here on out.

Many people have been asking me about the relation to my mom‘s cancer and mine since she passed away in 2019, so to clear that up, hers was colorectal so no relation to mine. Having just gone through that with her has been especially surreal for me because It feels like just yesterday I was on the other side looking in and being the support, now I am getting the support. Sometimes I wonder if it is a blessing or a curse that I am walking into this journey with some sort of insight or would it have been easier walking into it blindly. Everyone’s battle with cancer is unique to them I am learning. The blessing I take is that I was able to experience the sheer strength and positive mindset that my mother had through the entire process and trying to create my own, and for that I am grateful that I experienced it. She was a warrior and now I completely understand what she meant about the cancer milestones.

I did not want to publicize this until I knew the facts and I am still learning them. As of now I know I have triple negative ductal carcinoma (2 tumors) - luckily on only one breast, decent size, the tumor that is! Everyone is asking me what stage it is in but I will try that out, I think 1-2 ish but I’m not sure how they write it and as of now I do not think it has spread.

The other question I have been asked that I will clarify is how I found out or realized. I didn’t find it via routine check up I noticed a change and decided to get it checked. Well actually I remember the day specifically… I was talking to Jason, one of best friends, over a beer at the Growler and in my typical mass of conflicting impulse rambling about whatever is in my head- I mentioned, “you know, I have this thing I should probably go get it checked”. I always grace him with too much information but this time it was warranted. He encouraged me to go get checked and made sure I did and he has been and continues to be by my side since the day I found out. Many others have been there for me as well, but he has been in the trenches and when I have been an emotional train wreck. Pam, the wonderful lady that graces my father‘s life, I am convinced is a guardian angel… a breast cancer survivor herself, not only is she making sure I’m stocked up with wine, she has been to my preliminary appointments and has been an absolute rock not just for me but for my father. Having been on the other side when my mom was battling I realized that family needs the support group just as much as the cancer patient.

Now here we are, I was hoping to have the hormone based cancer but I have been graced with the triple negative, go big or go home right? It is treatable just a bit more complicated than the latter. I will need chemo, surgery and reconstruction surgery but I will find out more details talking to my oncologist. On my MRI they didn’t see anything in the lymph nodes which was a huge relief, MRI’s suck by the way if you are claustrophobic … that has been my biggest concern if it spread. It’s amazing what your mind does in situations like this… so easy to automatically think worst case scenario. And let me just tell you after you get the cancer diagnosis every little stupid thing makes you wonder… my wine hangover that I had for three days?… yep.. had to be brain cancer 🙄. You just can’t help it.

So now my focus is to get my nutrition and my body ready to fight and most important, my mind… with as neurotic and all over the place as I usually am maybe this will help me and everyone around me in the future 🤣. The people that have been mentoring me through this initial process have been telling me- the best medication you can have during this is your mindset.

I will continue updating this as I go about my journey, As unpleasant and difficult as it is going to be, I know I will come out as stronger than ever before. And as my mother used to say, day by day.

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