Welcome to my CaringBridge site. It's been created to keep my friends and family updated. I so appreciate your prayers, support and words of hope and encouragement during this time when it matters most. May God bless each and every one of you.
My Story really begins in detail in my first Journal Entry. It explains how I discovered that I have Triple-Negative Invasive Ductal Carcinoma and Inflammatory Breast Cancer. Currently, I'm just kind of in shock and a bit numb, and I can't quiet wrap my head around it, I just keep thinking maybe they've made a mistake. But with each passing day, the reality is beginning to settle in. And though I have yet to be able to cry, I'm beginning to get a bit anxious. What I can tell you from this experience so far, the worst part, at least in the beginning, is telling the people that love you. Because there's no easy way to reveal this to someone. And the immediate implications are just devastating to them. And you know they're trying to be strong for you, but they can't hide their tears and their fears. And that's okay. I think everyone should be able to get those emotions out whenever they can. But it is definitely the most painful part of this journey so far. At least for me. I want to keep this journal for my daughter. This is surely the last thing I ever wanted to see her witness. But she's handling it pretty good so far. She finally understands that it's okay to cry, that nothing she did caused this. But the reality is, my having breast cancer is going to increase her odds of getting it later in life. If, God forbid, this would happen to her, I'm not going to be able to be there to hold her hand and guide her through it. But at least she will have this. I plan on making private videos for her, but I want her to have a journal of my experience. A guide for what to do in a storm. So this one's for you, my sweet Emma. Momma loves you more than you can even imagine. You are my pride and joy, my biggest blessing from God. I am just in love with the young lady you are becoming. You are so tender hearted, yet as spunky as they come, just like your Momma. And I love your sense of humor, you crack me up on a daily basis with something new that comes out of your mouth. You are simply the best, baby girl.