I thought I had a plan for so many things in my life. And then I didn't....
It's a good thing I am not in charge and HE is.
Throughout this journey, I have come to realize that life moves on beside you and THAT is sometimes very difficult to grasp for me. For many around me nothing has changed- for me EVERYTHING has changed.
My brain says this- so you have breast cancer as a distraction from grief- a pain so deep and wide, it is hard to manage through. Crazy I know – but this is what I have had to move some of my focus to after losing my oldest son.
Planning for surgeries, meeting with doctors, telling my family and friends, etc.