Jackie Benner

First post: Feb 24, 2022 Latest post: Oct 17, 2023
For me, this has been a very shocking month.  Thankfully, everything has moved very quickly which is the way I want it.  My brain is fighting a battle with itself, as many of you understand.  I was fortunate to read an article about the conscious and subconscious mind where  what we don't want to dwell upon is urgently thrust into the forefront of thought because the subconscious does not distinguish the type of "danger" induced by stress.   This unwanted thought is termed a "white bear" that is threatening to attack.  ("We must deal with this NOW" kind of thing.)  Instead, we need to switch our thinking to a positive aspect of the stressful event.  This is called a "blue dolphin."  Visualize blue dolphins frolicking in the ocean.  
My positives are many and upon them I must focus.  The cancer was found.  I was referred to an amazing surgeon by a friend.  That surgeon works with amazing teams.  Appointments for everything just opened up before me. ("We had a cancelation.  Would you like to take this time?")  Bruce has been there every step of the way.  My children are strong and totally supportive.  My friends... well... the strength you all have poured into me has held me up and gotten me through each day.  I have many "blue dolphins" in my life.
Strength?  I don't know about that.  Determined?  Perhaps that is a better word.
I thank all of you for your positive energy, care, and love.   I am truly blessed.  These blessings make for a most joyful pod of blue dolphins. 
Thank you for walking this path with me.

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