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Heather Kill Gain
3/6/2017 Latest post:
My Name is , Heather R. Kill I have a son named Nathan Pierson, he is 12, well in 2 hours he'll be 12. He's the coolest kid ever! He's hilarious! He's very handsome too and he's smart. On January 17th I married my rock, Bradley J Kill! It was a wonderful quiet wedding. Only our dear friends Davitt, Susan, Linda and Angie and family, my mom, Mary, then of course Nathan Brad and I. Jeff Huber, he performed our wedding and he did an excellent job, of course!!! He's a really special guy!
We had a nice dinner aftre the wedding, then Brad and I stayed downtown Durango at the beautiful Strater. We had a beautiful room it was so special.
It was that 1st night in our wedding room that we talked about how I wasn't feeling well. The next morning I moved my Dr. Appointments up and was diagnosed with cancer about 8 days after our wedding night. Wow! It moved from the stage 1 to stage 4 within about two weeks. Stage four sounds very scary but I've learned that's just a medical term for Doctors. Haha. Its scary! very scary, but I figured out that worrying to much is a waste of time and it only makes me feel worse mentally and physically. Don't get me wrong I still freak out quite a bit actually. I'm on a rollercoaster of emotions as you can imagine. Most the time I try to keep my head up though! Life is so strange, of course, but enlightening, if this is the way its supposed to be right now than that's how it is but my story can change! We're moving forward and doing everything we can as far being knowledgeable, so I just need to accept the way things are and try to beat the odds.
I have wonderful people around me that have the power to help me feel that strength and keep me strong and moving, isn't that a song, Toby Mac? Wink, wink. My biggest rock comes from Brad and Nathan they are just wonderful and I'm shocked by their strength. I have friends that have appeared from many years ago past and friends that I've loved and had throughout my life and I'm so blessed to have them reconnect with me. I feel like I'm being a little selfish because I get to have so much love around me. Every one of us are very blessed. It's unfortunate that I don't know that until it comes down to the nitty-gritty sometimes, but I also know that's is when is the biggest blessing. I feel like I am getting wiser by the day but at the same time I know less and less every moment. We are always researching into clinical trials and alternative medicine, I'm already kind of on a waiting list for a clinical trial. Which I have tons of confidence in my Dr . They are very open with me. I do feel like I need to trust my heart and go with what feels right for me. There's so much information out there, it can get overwhelming.
I do feel very mindful. I know it sounds weird but we've been training for this for a while. Thank you to those who helped us get to this place. We couldn't do this without you. I love you so much Brad and I thank you for all you do for me. I know it's not easy, not at all, I was difficult before I got sick. I can't imagine what you must think sometimes. We are a great team!
I love you all and God bless. Welcome all my new friends! This will be an adventure for all of us to share.