Beyssa Buil GreyTeaKettle

First post: Oct 19, 2018 Latest post: Aug 2, 2019

I have been diagnosed with multiple sclerosis.

I was very shocked and saddened. Yet, I also have an indomitable spirit as I have been described in various recommendation letters, people that come to know me all of me, and when I was recognized as such I used to shrug it off and think,  "was that really me they were talking about?" But I know now, that really truly is the core of my being. That is my gift to share for others.

I have faced a myriad of setbacks in life and navigated them, surpassed and come out on top.

With that in mind I have always seen my sufferings as a gift to learn from. I did not always have this point of view. My spiritual practice taught me this, my    wonderful parents and teachers along the way have taught me the way.

Similar to Chiron who was the master of the healing arts and could not heal himself by willingly giving up his immortality for humanity.  He lives on today as a constellation and an inspiration.

I hope to use my current condition to advocate and teach others the gift of resiliency, the tools of compassion, the power of collective love and the will of a   positive mind set. I will use my personal suffering to be a source of expanded compassionate love to others to find their own light.

In my cat scan they found over twenty 20 lesions that had left scars from past flare ups. The neurologist estimated I have had this condition at least for the past 15 to 20 years, which completely confirms all of the symptoms I've been living with unawares, adapting myself and my life to accomplish everything I needed to do.

From graduating with honors as a World's Ahead Scholar from Florida International University in Religious Studies, a Chaplain volunteer in hospice, Education and Advocacy at Planned Parenthood, Vice President of Education and Advocacy for The United Nations Entity for Gender Equality and the Empowerment of Women, currently as a 2nd year Seminary student.

This illness has brought so much collective love  and support from friends and family that have been brought together  in this moment of my life.

I am so grateful to all of you.


Beyssa Buil