11/2/17 I was diagnosed with triple-negative breast cancer. It still seems unreal each time I say, "I have cancer". But, I do. Stage 2b. I had a 2 inch, grade 3 tumor in my right breast with 3 cancerous lymph nodes.
My whole world has changed forever. My perspective on life, my family, my priorities, my relationships. They are forever changed. And, for the better. I am grateful for the little things that I used to take for granted.
I stare at every wrinkle on my children's noses when they laugh, I squeeze them, I pray with them daily, and I tell them every chance I get that the day they were born was the best day of my life. They are my dream come true, my inspiration, my biggest accomplishments in life, my heroes, my most precious gifts that God could have ever given me. They will be my motivation to grind through the physical pain, and horror that cancer is just now beginning to show me.
So many wonderful people have surrounded my family with love, meals, support, prayers, and encouragement. Everyone wants to know what they can do to help. I feel so humbled and unworthy of this huge village that has gathered around me. My gratitude cannot be expressed in words.
Pray, please just pray for my precious children to be comforted and to not be fearful. Pray that they know even in the thick of the battle that their momma loves them fiercely- I may be tired, battered, agitated, sick, and have no hair but that I will bounce back. They need me every second of every day and the thought that they may feel for one single second that I am not able to give them what they need wrecks me to my core.
Pray for my healing. Jesus can part seas and move mountains. I know he will heal me. I believe in the power of prayer and I know that I will suffer terribly through this battle with Jesus by my side. And, I will have a testimony to share of how I was cured from this evil, aggressive cancer that is trying to kill me.