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September 10, 2018 a day that will forever change every aspect of my life. My personal and professional goals, my compassion for people this event has impacted every aspect of my life! Take a moment and Imagine an event that could impact your life in such a profound way that it changes everything that you have normalized. This moment was my normalized deviation from what I consider important.
On this day I had a partial seizure effecting the right side of my body, I was alert through the whole event my wife on the floor yelling “is this a joke is this real.” Those thoughts go through your head when your loved one is seemingly health young and with no unsuspecting health problem.
So, D-Day 9-26-18 I feel like this is a fitting description for the fight, I anticipate lay before me. The imagines this title brings to mind are ones of WW2 for which my grandpa trained to be a fighter pilot. He never was deployed but if that war would’ve continued he would have honored his obligations.
For me being young kid and learning about this conflict from someone relatively close to this conflict was a treat for me. The old war movies where awesome watch them with him at my side not like war movies today, but real classics. So the battle of cancer seems similar. Therefore I draw up this ultimate conflict of good and evil from which I grew up learning about.
Day 2 radiation and cemo therapy. Everyone has told me “now just get into a routine” “get back to normal.” Sounds great doesn’t it! The how is more troublesome. I haven’t slept good since coming home i think that is normal at least I’m considering it normal. But the routine for my day goes something like this shower (just because you get brain cancer doesn’t mean you can smell or look bad), brush teeth, deodorant, that normal stuff everyone does in the morning. Today I thought a lot about the survivors we have connected with, interesting thing about my cancer is that it’s bad. Interesting story about that one Friday of diagnosis the neurosurgeon entered our room asked briefly do you want everyone in here? I answered yes of course because why do I want to tell everyone when you can do it for me come on let’s get this train rolling. He preceded to say the tumor is “bad worst of the worst” the type of cancer is “one you through everything at.” Yup this guy ain’t joking!!! So how to process this cry, hug, ect. normal emotional stuff that people go through when there in this situation. That’s what we did. Side note that neurosurgeon is a fantastic surgeon he is the (fantastic word that I can’t come up with right now). Anyways, drawing strength to make it through the next 40 days. #connecttopeople #dontbesilent.