This is my story, the story of Cybil and the Seaward. I am not to the stage of my journey yet that I can even say the word. I went from feeling like a young, strong and healthy 47 year old...full of life and vitality and positive energy, love and laughter...to feeling like I have been hit by a baseball bat. I feel like my world is spinning, like I can't catch my breath, like everything is falling apart. But the truth of the matter is, I am still young and strong and healthy and 47 years old. I am still full of life and vitality and positive energy. My love and laughter continues to be the driving forces of my life. I am surrounded by the love and support of family and friends, I have a great medical team, and I am very hopeful that by this time next year I will be running in a survivor's race and volunteering to help other people who have received this news. Please feel free to use this site to keep up with where I am in my journey, and feel free to share information with other friends. I know that once I start treatment I will find that there are many many difficult things about this battle, but right now one of the hardest things to do is to share the same information time and again. I love you all, thank you for your support.